I've been super sparse with journal posting for the past few years. Mostly due to being more on twitter than anything combined with my journal feed being roughly 90% stream notifications and ych reminders that I lost interest in the medium. But I hope to get back to it. I need to chat more long form about things again.

It's been a bittersweet time for me this weekend. My roommates have moved out and gotten their own place, and I and now moved into a one bedroom. They moved to their own place as they want to have their own space. And they are like ten minutes away, so we'll still see each other often. But I'm still feeling lonely. I'm a cat through and through. I like being around people even if I'm not interacting with them.

But we got most of the stuff moved today. Still a bit to do cleaning the old place tomorrow. And a few more loose ends to tie up with the new place (because of course there are). It's just quite a drain on me emotionally.

It's a bit strange as half a decade ago having my own apartment would have been a luxury I fantasized over. Now it feels like a step back. Probably a sign of how comfortable I was. And aside from just having other people around it's nice to share burdens. Not just financial but other responsibilities as well. As it stands if feels like King Dionysius has hung a small armory over my head.

Financially I can handle it, but it's worrisome. Particularly at this time of year with Midwest Furfest coming up, Christmas coming, and the dreaded winter break. I'm currently working part time as a math tutor for a local college. Unfortunately the college is dead set on keeping me part time. So that means no benefits and five weeks unpaid mandatory vacation in the winter.

But I'll get through as I always do.

In other news, all of this moving has shown me how much crap I own. Lots of stuff from half-hearted projects that sounded like a good idea. (“ooh, maybe I'll make a fursuit today”) I realize that while making that sort of thing sounds fun, I really just need to pick a thing or tow and double down on it. So I'm going to double down on my writing and my art and let those be my things.

I need to continue posting the Ten Nights in Lyra chapters, continue with the voyeurism arc I was working on, get back to my Lapis Lazuli art stuff, and more, And really start showing some of my world building. I've done tons of that over the past few years but haven't put much to work. That must change.

Anyway, thanks for reading this. More coming soon, I hope.