You surely noticed I stopped posting Inktober drawings. Sadly I had several issues causing me to fall behind, until I was behind by a whole week. At this point I had to make the decision to give up on it for this year. I have lot of backlog work to do, and a quick drawing a day sounded manageable but as it started piling up it became a source of pressure. Next year I'll try again.

       A bit of good news is that my finances are a bit less scary now. Thanks to generous sponsorship from a friend I'm not in immediate danger of losing electricity, Internet or gas service anymore. But I'm still in a tight spot. The real solution will be taking on work periodically once my backlog is cleared - which brings me to my next point.

       I have progressed with the backlog but it goes painfully slow. Other than the commission pieces I need to finish I also have the freelance client who hired me, and I'm way behind with that project too - in this case though it's partly their fault, but the result is the same. I have completed a graphic for them in the last 24 hours of a hard deadline which taxed me mentally and emotionally, and now have another piece that needs to be finished very soon as they need to print prototypes... but I'm not sure if I can.

       I'm feeling physically sick just from thinking of it, and I have to force myself to work on it for the next few days. I now suffer from both depression and anxiety, and sleeping and eating problems as a result. And I'm not sure if there is anything that can be done... but I have to do something.

       I'll meet my client on Thursday or Friday when they are free, and tell them honestly that my health is just in a really bad state and I can't work like this. I'm sure they woN't be happy... but I have to be honest about this, as the problems won't magically go away.

       Wish me luck.