Days Like this I just wish I could sleep through
19 years ago
General
I really don't like this day. Not becuase everyone is all lovey dovey and all but because... well I have been single for most of the V-day of my life.
Single has its advantages but knowing out there that someone other than family gives at shit about you and care about you enough to say I Care about you feels good. I like the companionship of a woman.
But I suck at gettign to the companionship becuase when I try to say something nice about a girl it usually comes out "I like your boobs." or I make a fool of myself in some stupid way that totally blows any shot I have with a girl I thik is attractive.
Either that or I am "the friend" Do you have any idea how many times I have sat down next to a girl I have liked and she was all "I hate guys all of them are assholes. I can't find a decent on to save my life." So I reply "Well what do you look for in a guy?" She describes me to a T and whe nI say "Well you just described me." she laughs and tel me what a good friend I am.
Just to set the record straight I DON'T WANT TO BE THE FRIEND!!! I don't want to be the guy a girl goes to when she feels like crap because she can't find a guy who doesn't just want to bang her and head for the hills. I don't want to be the guy she cries on when her man is a prick.
I want to be the guy that the girl comes up too and flirts with. I want to be the guy who for once actually has a chance.I want to be the guy who a girl can look at and think to herself "I want him to be my man."
Furthermore I just want to find a damned woman who will be there when my life hits a rut and shit just isn't going my way. Or is I do something embarrising she can still turn around and say "yes that is my man."
Ladies of the world, why can't there be one of you that will do that. Why can't someone just for once think that just because I may be misguided and sometime have my head up my ass that I will not do the right thing in the end.
I'm not lazy. I will bend over backwards just to make you happy. I will support you in your decisions and give you advice when you need it. I will be there when PMS has taken its toll and you just need someone to hold you. I will be there through thick and thin. And I really won't ask for much in return.
Here is what I want in return for doing almost anything for you. Ready ladies get a pen the list is pretty long:
1) DON'T CHEAT ON ME! Fuck how hard is it to not do that. You ladies out there that say men cheat on women so much more that the other way around. You are looking to the exception of the rule. and really is it that hard to follow. You see a guy you want to get it on with, think of him later that night. Just don't call out his name, that is just rude. I don't care. OMFG I don't know I guess I am the only one inthis world that has thought of this idea, how fricken unique.
2) If you are out with friends and gonna crash at their house for the night, go ahead, but please just drop me a line before you show up to grab your things. And when you do get your things spend a few minutes with me before you go out and have fun all night.
3) If you are goingto be late... CALL. I am sorry but if you can't show me that much respect as for taking the time to geive me a heads up that you are running late the nI have a right to upset. How did I know you were ok. Perhaps you got in a car accident and are in the hospital. Shit happens ladies don't make me worry about you.
Really are those three things that hard? That and please listen to me when I say something not everything that comes out of my mouth is bullshit. If I am older than you sometimes what I say comes from life EXP. Is that so hard to understand??
And Guess what? At no addtional charge, you want something you get it! HOLY SHIT what a capitol idea huh? name it and you get it, If I can't get it for you now wait I will get it for you ASAP.
I also have a thing about the "just thining of you" present.
How about You like (insert hobby here) look I got you (your favorite thing from added hobby)
And for that all I ask for is a thank you and a hug. Any maybe if you are feeling super generous a kiss, and that is all.
So if anyone can tell me why I suck at the ladies other than what I say tell me. I would love to know.
I will tell you now you give me and inch and I will give you a mile.
Single has its advantages but knowing out there that someone other than family gives at shit about you and care about you enough to say I Care about you feels good. I like the companionship of a woman.
But I suck at gettign to the companionship becuase when I try to say something nice about a girl it usually comes out "I like your boobs." or I make a fool of myself in some stupid way that totally blows any shot I have with a girl I thik is attractive.
Either that or I am "the friend" Do you have any idea how many times I have sat down next to a girl I have liked and she was all "I hate guys all of them are assholes. I can't find a decent on to save my life." So I reply "Well what do you look for in a guy?" She describes me to a T and whe nI say "Well you just described me." she laughs and tel me what a good friend I am.
Just to set the record straight I DON'T WANT TO BE THE FRIEND!!! I don't want to be the guy a girl goes to when she feels like crap because she can't find a guy who doesn't just want to bang her and head for the hills. I don't want to be the guy she cries on when her man is a prick.
I want to be the guy that the girl comes up too and flirts with. I want to be the guy who for once actually has a chance.I want to be the guy who a girl can look at and think to herself "I want him to be my man."
Furthermore I just want to find a damned woman who will be there when my life hits a rut and shit just isn't going my way. Or is I do something embarrising she can still turn around and say "yes that is my man."
Ladies of the world, why can't there be one of you that will do that. Why can't someone just for once think that just because I may be misguided and sometime have my head up my ass that I will not do the right thing in the end.
I'm not lazy. I will bend over backwards just to make you happy. I will support you in your decisions and give you advice when you need it. I will be there when PMS has taken its toll and you just need someone to hold you. I will be there through thick and thin. And I really won't ask for much in return.
Here is what I want in return for doing almost anything for you. Ready ladies get a pen the list is pretty long:
1) DON'T CHEAT ON ME! Fuck how hard is it to not do that. You ladies out there that say men cheat on women so much more that the other way around. You are looking to the exception of the rule. and really is it that hard to follow. You see a guy you want to get it on with, think of him later that night. Just don't call out his name, that is just rude. I don't care. OMFG I don't know I guess I am the only one inthis world that has thought of this idea, how fricken unique.
2) If you are out with friends and gonna crash at their house for the night, go ahead, but please just drop me a line before you show up to grab your things. And when you do get your things spend a few minutes with me before you go out and have fun all night.
3) If you are goingto be late... CALL. I am sorry but if you can't show me that much respect as for taking the time to geive me a heads up that you are running late the nI have a right to upset. How did I know you were ok. Perhaps you got in a car accident and are in the hospital. Shit happens ladies don't make me worry about you.
Really are those three things that hard? That and please listen to me when I say something not everything that comes out of my mouth is bullshit. If I am older than you sometimes what I say comes from life EXP. Is that so hard to understand??
And Guess what? At no addtional charge, you want something you get it! HOLY SHIT what a capitol idea huh? name it and you get it, If I can't get it for you now wait I will get it for you ASAP.
I also have a thing about the "just thining of you" present.
How about You like (insert hobby here) look I got you (your favorite thing from added hobby)
And for that all I ask for is a thank you and a hug. Any maybe if you are feeling super generous a kiss, and that is all.
So if anyone can tell me why I suck at the ladies other than what I say tell me. I would love to know.
I will tell you now you give me and inch and I will give you a mile.
FA+

The guys I end up dating tend to be all well and nice in the beginning, and I'd do pretty much anything for them that didn't involve sex (i'm a good girl, y'see) and I remember them on their birthdays, anniversaries, special holidays, or something as small as the day of their 1 year work anniversary... or the day of their contests/competitions.
I bring them stuff when they're sick to feel better. And little gifts here and there "just because." And I don't give a damn if they go out with their friends and I only hear from them once that night, because y'know... I care about them enough to not let it bother me. I'm not at all a jealous girl.. so I don't even care if they have female friends who I might not meet.. because dear god.. I actually trust.
But.. in the end... it all winds up backwards... and pretty much everything I do is taken for granted and walked on. Feelings hurt, and left sad. I realize not all guys are like that.. but for the most part, it's what those I've dated are like. So, I'm on pause right now pretty much.
To be honest, for the most part I did have trouble trusting, since I was cheated on so many times.
But I am the guy who does remember the month anniversaey, birthday, hell I even remember the first time we kissed or connected in way we never did before. I am the thoughtful guy. But girls don't want thoughtful they want the asshole. women enter a realtionship expecting that they can chage a guy and guy enter a relationship thinking the girl will never change. I know that we all change that is what life is changes. But I just can't fathom, any coherant thought on why people like us have to be trampled just so someone can get what they want. it is pathetic