As those who follow my Twitter already know, I had to deal with an unpleasant hospital visit over the last two weeks, due once again to my T1 diabetes. I'll spare the grisly details, but the short version is that my extremities, particularly my feet, are becoming dried out and actually cracking. My feet cracked badly enough that they were bleeding and I couldn't walk, so I went in for treatment. As bad as this sounds, I was one of the fortunate ones--people can and do lose toes or even whole limbs to these symptoms and I am grateful to have caught it in time.

Sadly, the doctors are limited in what they can do--while they have given me some medicines to help with the dry-out and will be checking in on my kidney functions, I don't have the kind of insurance which would provide for a pump or advanced home glucose monitoring system, and my finances limit how well I can tailor my diet. Not complaining, as I am doing better than many diabetics. Just offering an explanation so that folks will understand that this isn't something I can hand waive away.

Sometimes, diabetes makes me tired. So much so that sometimes whole weeks go by where I can't accomplish any work, because thinking feels like trying to start a lawnmower filled with molasses instead of gas. Other times it makes me grouchy and withdrawn from the pain that comes with nerve endings flaring up and dying off, so I don't always want to talk or converse, and I have an increasingly hard time doing it without Lobo's help. Some days are totally fine, and I feel like I have a good handle on it. And other days, my feet and legs swell up so badly I can't move, or, as happened last week, they outright crack and bleed.

Despite this, I'm not offering excuses for the work I had promised not being finished. Although the reasons I couldn't hit my targeted completion date should be evident here, I am offering a full refund to those commissioners waiting over 3 months whose work has not been started, or a partial refund to those whose work is in progress (note me, otherwise I will continue work on your pic!). Again, I simply want everyone to understand that the lack of progress or communication on my part is never intentional, and that I will continue to work diligently towards finishing your commissions and upholding your trust, even if that means taking a harsh financial hit over the short term.

To that end, I will be taking NO further commissions and hosting NO formal streams until the last of my current queue is complete, after which time I will be resuming my short hiatus from fandom work to tend to my personal and medical needs. I will re-announce when commissions reopen, and I appreciate your patience, support, and kindness in these difficult times.