There's a lot of you guys I wish I could speak to more often. I watch and read along on your twitter feeds, your FA journals, and chats. I refrain from responding much; I try to only say something when there's at least a minimum amount of substance so it's not an empty reply. But I often fear that others, especially those I care about, might feel I'm cold, distant, or disinterested. I promise I'm not. I just don't have much to talk about. Not a lot goes on in my life, other than going to work day after day. My life is boring. So it's difficult for me to relate to many discussions about what goes on in the world.

Yesterday I reached out and said as much to a special guy I am particularly fond of. But I also want my other friends and acquaintances to know as well. The fact that I don't have much to say is already effecting my relationship with my parents, who are starting to believe that I don't care about them just because I don't call often. I don't want that to happen to my friends, too.