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Jaron the Rock 'n' Roll Shepsky! | Registered: September 28, 2012 11:57:40 AM

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Thank You

8 years ago

I don't think I show anywhere near enough appreciation for how much you guys mean to me. Particularly the people I'm actually more close to, but even still. 



I kind of get this prompting at times to give thanks, but most times I'd feel too scared for some reason.



(Again for the 1000th time) Since around October last year, I had two periods in time where my depression, among most of my other issues, had me down to such a bad level, I was just refusing everything that I loved. Had some eye opening experiences here and there that kind of added to the issue. I think at some point during the year, I just gave myself a metaphorical whack to the face, and took others advice and my own, to just move forward and stop complaining about whatever shouldn't be happening in my life. Because you know what, shit happens!



No matter what had happened though, you guys just stuck around. You have no idea how much I appreciate the support. 



It's really given me a sense of motivation to try to better myself. What I've learnt is to not think that I'm only drawing to please others and that I have to make other happy in general to make myself "happy". Obviously I love the feedback I get from others, that really excites me. But I had to learn that I need to do this for myself, as well as everyone who follows me and my artwork. It's not only my profession, but it's one that I can passionately engage in. Something that I can enjoy doing as my work.





I've also had a recent surprise which had made things a little more positive for me here. 



In most situations, with most artists, you'd obviously find that cleaner rated pieces don't often get anywhere near as good a reception as the more adult rated pieces. Last month I was working on a particular commission. The concept that commissioner and I had planned up, I really loved the idea and I really enjoyed working on this piece.

This was the piece, "A Soapy Relaxation" - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25170975/



A few things made me personally proud of this piece. Not only the paws part, but one of my biggest inspirations for this was the movie Scarface, which is one of my all-time favourite movies. The commissioner had told me that he wanted his character to be quite relaxed, and for some reason the scene with him in this massive bathtub, was the first thing that came to my mind. I thought that doing something anywhere near along the lines of that was just crazy, and that my skill level couldn't produce something like a nice bath. I had done a bath scene before, but I thought it was somewhat disappointing. Speaking of which I actually found out looking through one of my Telegram groups I'm in, that one of the people who had commissioned me that piece, didn't really like it because of a few mistakes. Should've let me know if there were issues, but oh well too late now. But anyways, I decided to go with that Scarface scene as an inspiration. Obviously not the best picture you'll ever see in you're life, but it pushed me past my comfort zone to try new things (like the soapy water). Because you know, you can't ever proceed to improve if you refuse to learn new skills.



When I published this, I only thought this was only going to get about 20 or 30 likes, as most of my cleaner pieces usually do. Not that I'm one to focus on numbers or quantity in general, but I didn't expect anything massive wise in terms of reception. Within just over a day, this had over 100 favourites. This really shocked me that something like this got kinda popular that quick. This gave me hope that even a cleaner piece, especially being a piece I'm personally attached too, can attract people and gain good feedback from it. It just made me really happy.





I'm just really appreciate the support, honestly. Through my times of trouble and through my times of returning to a more positive state of mind, you've all been great. Especially my close friends, who are always looking out for me, checking to see if I'm okay or not (even if all the interaction can stress me out here and there XP).





From what all my heart can offer, thank you so much. 



~Guru

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