Hello,

So the end of November wad kinda alright, sadly near the end my AUSU laptop that I was doing a lot of my base coloring and graphics work on figured it was a good idea to just kick the bucket nearly. My hard drive went in it. To top that all off I've been forced by EVERYONE in my family to go back to college and it all ONLINE! Now what scares me the most is flunking out like I did at my local college and upsetting everyone yet again. Classes don't start till January 8th, but I'm still scared as fuck. I just pray that I don't screw this up big time. It's only 2 years and I'll get a dagree under my belt. Who know, with it all being online I might actually do good this time.
Now onto a bit of a medical update: my insurance sadly will not get back to me about an MRI or surgery for my knee. What upsets me about that the most is the simple 4 steps of stairs that I need to walk up to get into my own house feel like I'm walking up 20 steps. I'm bracing my self against the wall way to much now when I walk around a house anymore and sitting in a car even hurts. I'm really not liking this anymore and I'm in a knee brace 24/7 nearly. I broke down crying today because a friend asked me to help them get stuff up into the apartment and just a small basket with clothes and I felt my knee just want to give out. I feel useless even with a brace on. I'm going to call my doctor on Monday and inform her that it's only getting worse to the point of me not being able to do much at all anymore yet again. As of right now I'm laying on a couch in an apartment on the second floor and the last time I looked at my knee was a bad shade of purple.

Sorry for the bad stuff. If I fully went into everything that was going on, well this would be all depressing stuff.