*sigh*

I'm suffering some major burnout lately, which I realize must sound crazy, because how can one feel burnout, when one doesn't do anything? .... well... I manage to.

There's stuff going on, messing with my head, and yesterday, at my manga drawing class, I was told that I should redo the whole first chapter of my comic, because it's pretty dreadful. At first this sounded logical to me, but as I went home, I felt pissed off. I felt like screaming, throwing things around, or crushing something at least. I turned off Skype and any other messenger, because I just could not handle talking to anybody.

I am such a useless piece of shit, that cannot accomplish anything anymore, but here's I'm told... "Hey, you remember that corpse that you try to hide in your closet? That you are so ashamed of? Get ready to spend the next 5 years of your miserable and pathetic life polishing that turd!"

I get that my attitude is childish, but I genuinely feel pissed off. It all makes me question when the last time was that I felt happy about what I was creating.... if I ever had to begin with... if I wouldn't be happier if I just gave it all up.

Yes, yes, it is incredibly childish of me, but given what trouble I go through, it sounds so sick, like "You're sad about not making progress? Well, you should be making even less of it!"


Sorry, I just feel so angry and sad