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The message below contain my depressive experience if you’re already depressed or sensitive. Please do not read it.
Recently, I have experienced another great lost of my life.
To begin with, I have a twin brother. He’s a lady boy. He and I were very close to each other. When we were kids. Our family had a serious financial issues so we had to share everything together such as toys, bed, studying books. When we both were in high school, our dad passed away so we had to spend our time together helping our mom working. Sharing the same workplace made me think that ‘at least I have my brother as a friend. A friend who understands me, who know what I’ve been through and will be there for me for the rest of my life and I will do the same for him.’No matter where I went, my brother always was there with me.
When we were about 20 years old. My brother got a job as a redeemer at game center which is pretty far away. It was the first time we had to be apart. Back then, It was quite a shock to me because I felt like I had lost something close to me. Even though I could go visit him all the time I wanted. Right now, he and I are 28. He had passed away due to lung infection. Just a couple days ago, he and I were just having a chat about games I haven’t played with him and animes I haven’t watched. It is very hard for me to process all of this happening at the moment. He was a strong person. I can’t believe he was gone. The day he passed, he was quite ‘normal’. We talked. We play jokes like usual but, suddenly he’s not there anymore. I just lost one best friend I could ever ask for. Not like the time when he was away working, now I can’t even go to see him anymore.
Now, I don’t feel good, mentally. I don’t have much friends in FA because my own English is not good. I have to ask my friend or hire someone to translate for me. But don’t worry about my works on FA or commissions. I will try my best not to let it affect my works too much. It may take time but I promise to keep up the good works.
I also want to let you guys know that I am attending ceremony of my brother and also religious ceremony to mourn him. So , for now I have to focus on these ceremonies than my works. I’ll be back fully after everything is finished.
Sincerely,
LucusOld
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The message below contain my depressive experience if you’re already depressed or sensitive. Please do not read it.
Recently, I have experienced another great lost of my life.
To begin with, I have a twin brother. He’s a lady boy. He and I were very close to each other. When we were kids. Our family had a serious financial issues so we had to share everything together such as toys, bed, studying books. When we both were in high school, our dad passed away so we had to spend our time together helping our mom working. Sharing the same workplace made me think that ‘at least I have my brother as a friend. A friend who understands me, who know what I’ve been through and will be there for me for the rest of my life and I will do the same for him.’No matter where I went, my brother always was there with me.
When we were about 20 years old. My brother got a job as a redeemer at game center which is pretty far away. It was the first time we had to be apart. Back then, It was quite a shock to me because I felt like I had lost something close to me. Even though I could go visit him all the time I wanted. Right now, he and I are 28. He had passed away due to lung infection. Just a couple days ago, he and I were just having a chat about games I haven’t played with him and animes I haven’t watched. It is very hard for me to process all of this happening at the moment. He was a strong person. I can’t believe he was gone. The day he passed, he was quite ‘normal’. We talked. We play jokes like usual but, suddenly he’s not there anymore. I just lost one best friend I could ever ask for. Not like the time when he was away working, now I can’t even go to see him anymore.
Now, I don’t feel good, mentally. I don’t have much friends in FA because my own English is not good. I have to ask my friend or hire someone to translate for me. But don’t worry about my works on FA or commissions. I will try my best not to let it affect my works too much. It may take time but I promise to keep up the good works.
I also want to let you guys know that I am attending ceremony of my brother and also religious ceremony to mourn him. So , for now I have to focus on these ceremonies than my works. I’ll be back fully after everything is finished.
Sincerely,
LucusOld
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?.....=3&theater
I just want to say.. In reference to commissions and art.. If you need time away from FA, you take it!! Now, if this is one of your major sources of income, then I understand you not wanting to let this slow you down in your work.. But at the same time, if you have to take some time out to step away, mourn, go be with your family and friends, then you do that! People will understand and wait for you to return and if they don't, then FUCK THEM! It is your life, not theirs and you do what you need to do!
Even if there is a major language barrier, just know I am keeping you in my thoughts. Be strong my friend. But being strong does not mean you shouldn't cry, you cry as much as you want. If anyone tries to say other wise, ignore them.
My best wishes for you and your mother.
*Big hugs*
*gives you a firm warm hug*
losing somebody that close to you is never easy, shit even hard doesn't start to describe it.
take your time buddy and just take it one day at a time
Do what you need to do. Be well.
Take all the time you need Lucas, cherish all the happy memories you can.
"huge"