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Someway possible to get away from depression -Help Request
8 years ago
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This blue book with green and yellow bindings says, "The Personal Diary and Record Book of Vinchenzo."
Well, considering my followed through suicide attempt was from a mix of circumstances, I'm now seeking to escape a few of them.
In regards of the circumstances I'm dealing with IRL, they are tied to an unkind, uncaring stepfather, and he and my mother are controlling, and quite, abusive.
While this is just the root of a fraction of the issues that caused my suicide, they are a factor, and certainly, without them, I'd be less depressed, less stressed out, and dealing with less anxiety.
I need to move out, but that isn't possible as my deviant manipulative mother and step-father have done everything they can to ensure I can not. They strip me of my money for each month, leaving me only scraps to survive off of, and they constantly belittle me and destroy both my confidence and my hopes, and refuse to provide any aid in me ever having hope of a job, or even acquire a driver's license. I cannot walk to a job, and there is no bus service or taxis in Bayville, only a train that would take over an hour to walk to... that leaves specifically to far off places...
I've been stuck thinking, if someone were to take me in, I could seek out a job, whether a fast food worker or a man stacking products on shelves, I'd take ANY job, just to pay that person for taking me in, and doing everything I can to help out and support my savior.
Problem is, not many furries exist in my area, and there are 0 in my town. Still, if there is anyone who would drive into New Jersey, Ocean County, Bayville/Beachwood, and pick me up and take me away from my nightmare parents, I'd appreciate it.
I'd still deal with any stress or abuse online in the furry fandom at various websites, and my damaged liver, my other health problems, but I'd at least be able to get away from a horrible home situation.
Anyone here at FA who helps would also have my thanks, just spreading the word would be appreciated by me.
In regards of the circumstances I'm dealing with IRL, they are tied to an unkind, uncaring stepfather, and he and my mother are controlling, and quite, abusive.
While this is just the root of a fraction of the issues that caused my suicide, they are a factor, and certainly, without them, I'd be less depressed, less stressed out, and dealing with less anxiety.
I need to move out, but that isn't possible as my deviant manipulative mother and step-father have done everything they can to ensure I can not. They strip me of my money for each month, leaving me only scraps to survive off of, and they constantly belittle me and destroy both my confidence and my hopes, and refuse to provide any aid in me ever having hope of a job, or even acquire a driver's license. I cannot walk to a job, and there is no bus service or taxis in Bayville, only a train that would take over an hour to walk to... that leaves specifically to far off places...
I've been stuck thinking, if someone were to take me in, I could seek out a job, whether a fast food worker or a man stacking products on shelves, I'd take ANY job, just to pay that person for taking me in, and doing everything I can to help out and support my savior.
Problem is, not many furries exist in my area, and there are 0 in my town. Still, if there is anyone who would drive into New Jersey, Ocean County, Bayville/Beachwood, and pick me up and take me away from my nightmare parents, I'd appreciate it.
I'd still deal with any stress or abuse online in the furry fandom at various websites, and my damaged liver, my other health problems, but I'd at least be able to get away from a horrible home situation.
Anyone here at FA who helps would also have my thanks, just spreading the word would be appreciated by me.
Just remember this: those people don't know you. Therefore, they are wrong about you!
I can tell you this. They cannot grant immunity without permission from the Government.
Note me whenever you need someone to talk to.
Mind you, I'll copy and paste these points here so you are kept up to date on things.
I just want to mention, I've acted performing much smaller forms of harassment and been suspended for a week in regards to PixelsNFur.
I also want to mention I've acted performing much smaller and less extreme forms of harassment and been suspended for a month in regards to Mericus.
I again, also want to mention that I've acted with prejudice in much smaller forms than Lei-lani and Moonblood and have been suspended for a month.
Why is it I am punished worse than everyone else for breaking rules and yet for some reason other people break the same exact rules and are not punished whatsoever?
This reply to my support tickets in regard to each case and how that every-time other people break the same rules in worse ways are not punished at all makes an excellent point...
I've done broken the same rules in the most minor of ways, but these individuals each did a much worse way of breaking SoFurry rules and were never reprimanded and were instantly ignored by staff on that website. Mind you, Lei-lani and Moonblood are both staff members on SoFurry, but those other two folk are not. It seems regardless of whether or not these people break rules, the harassment by PixelsNFur and Mericus, the death threats and stalking by Mericus, the comments attacking race and religion by Lei-lani and Moonblood, were all ignored makes an excellent point of injustice on the website. I'm hoping the support ticket responder Casey Jess actually does not try to sugar coat things and explain why she cannot punish them and why they are not applicable for punishment for breaking said rules again because if anything, if I got punished for breaking the same rules in smaller less horrid actions, they should. PS: My form of harassment 1 was stating a truthful comment or simply 2 quoting a person that quoted person finds offensive. My form of prejudice was judging all Trump supporters as if they are all the same horrid people. That's no where near as bad as what ANY OF THEM did.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQfi0IshLVg&list=PLBEdL_IeBrwCVGE0uJxLm1RYFpF7s8crH&index=37
Then again NitW easily explains how similar this game and circumstances tie in with real life... in fact, way too much.
Btw, I've seen the Rust Belt and its people... so... I can understand and sympathize with these people. Way too much. I just can't support them. Why support what they consider the greater good, a cause that does so little good, while doing so MUCH bad... I can't see eye to eye with my step-father as a result. Then again, my step-father hates me over my mother's race in addition to my being unemployed, different political views, and different religious views.
There is no help from police in this backwards lawless redneck town.
I am 23 years old and the only reason I live with mine is because I am in college and they pay most of my tuition. They make me work a job at a Walmart when I am at home for the summer and they made me get a driver license when I was 19. They also have 5 cars to allow me and my brother and sister to work jobs. My brother and sister are both legal adults and since they both dropped out of college they have to pay rent to our parents to live with them. After I graduate my parents will give me one of their cars and I'm moving out. My siblings are 20 and 19 if they don't go back to college in the next few years then they'll have to move out, even if it means living with me.
What your parents are doing sounds illegal. I'd try getting on Facebook and as many social media sites that you can and explain your scenario. Try getting this noticed by the court of law.
Right now, moving out, or being kicked out, by my mother and stepfather would be a quick death sentence, especially with all the crime and deaths occurring in my area. Police refuse to intervene because its not their job too. Living in this house, is a godsend, and a curse, both... sadly, it won't last forever, when I made this journal, my stepfather had been initiating his plan to kick me out of the house. My mother, destroyed his plans, and opposes them heavily, bringing up the point I wouldn't survive on my own, which is, true.
I'm lucky my mother does care about me in some way... and if anything, I've become quite thankful for her. Still, I'm more thankful for other people. Like the individual who was on the other side of the country, who dialed 911, and saved my life, when my family would not, when I followed through with a suicide attempt on December 2017. Of course, she dialed 911 because I made a journal here on FA... which the staff removed and suspended me for, because being suicidal is against the rules of the site at the time and is punished with suspension. If staff took down that journal earlier, I'd be dead right now.
Well, I'm trying to piece my life back together with my dickhead apathetic stepfather not helping. It's difficult, but maybe if I'm lucky, 20 years from now I'll have a drivers license... or even better, if someone takes me in, I'd be able to fix my life damn quick... I honestly wish there was a furry living in New Jersey, but no furries live in this state of the USA. If they do, I've never met or seen one before on any website ever, and have never heard of such a furry being possible. I'm in the one state of the USA where I'm the only living furry in the entire state. Sad but true.
I have an alternate suggestion but first I must ask a simple question: Do your parents have legal guardianship over you? If so then you could tell every living relative and step-relative about your situation. You could have one of them confront your parents about signing over the guardianship. Just make sure the new guardian will teach you how to drive and let you get a job.
The only other thing I would try is to contact law enforcement and see if you're eligible for a foster home. You could make a call or write a Document and post it on a site that answers questions regarding what's legal and what's not. I know you're 12 or 13 years too old but your scenario sounds way too similar to the Turpin case.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Turpin_case
I know it's not as extreme as that, but you don't deserve to remain trapped until your parents die, or until death by your own hand, or by theirs.