This month oh boi what fun!!

I've had such a good time with stuff and people close to me like heck I had a blast with a stream but just this past weeks I've seen someone I trusted and had put in high regards heck even said to me something that inspired me so much have pulled the chair under me and let me fall and I feel I've finally snapped!

My cough has become horrible
I feel like my mind is mad but some rational part of me is trying to pin down this problem
Heck I've repeatedly said "I don't know" after and I feel emotionless yet I can't help but fucking grin and laugh!

Fuck me maybe this or more less a rant or maybe I'm trying to ask for help but I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore!

Like yeah there is some people I know I can trust but many others I feel I can't trust heck I don't trust myself to show me to people because I feel that I will dissepoint them or if they say they don't think so it makes me think their trying to lie to me

Fucking brilliant I'm just gonna type create like heck maybe the person who broke me will talk to me on PM or maybe they will avoid me from now but either way here it goes clicking create!