Hey folks.. I apologize for the random journal but I just wanna ask for help in some way.

Anyone who knows me knows I constantly yearn to be a woman, and I’ve had several friends tell me the ups and downs of being as such.

But lately all I can think about is being transformed into a dragon or argonian female and feeling my chest swell heavily into my shirt as my hips engorge and I feel my tail stretch out on a firm bum..

I’d be so happy, and how much I want to feel life in my tummy as it’s bloated with eggs <3 I want to be loved on, held and kissed. I want to be called beautiful, feel attractive and hear my darling hatchlings call me mother.

I want to be able to wear dresses without feeling awkward and be able to look in the mirror down my scales about and see those rapturing slitted eyes staring back.

I guess.. does anyone have some advice to help alleviate this pain? Am I crazy?
I’ve been trying to doodle and write stories but it only helps a little, I don’t have the art talent to craft my own body on paper., sometimes makes it worse.
I even have a story I wrote myself and an artist I commissioned to make it a comic soon so I can’t wait for that.

I don’t know.. I’m sorry if this came off a bit rambly. I’m sitting here with my stomach in a knot, a dizzy head and a heartbeat I can feel in my throat. I wanted to reach out to anyone.. ;.=.;

Thanks..
- Kevin

P.S. I’ll try to start uploading some stuff soon, depression and procrastinations been holding me down. I have a year+ worth of art to share.