so. not many people know this; but ive been trying to get ssi for several years now. i was born with cerebral palsy and never got it properly taken care of as a child because my family was a piece of shit.

the only job ive had is baskin robins, and after a week of struggling, they sliced my hours to a measely 4 hours a week. on min wage. i had lost my apartment because of that. i tried to file, and got denied. i was stupid, didnt file for an appeal, didnt get a lawyer.

last year, i tried again. i filed. someone on their end was nice enough to find old medical records of mine. i went to so many appointments. both physical and mental. i told my story that it took me more than 6 months to get that job, and then they sliced my hours to 4 hours a week because of my disability.

......and they denied me. again.

they basically told me that even though i have cerebral palsy and can barely stand for a full hour, despite the fact that i suffer from depression and untreated ptsd since childhood, i can still work. i just need to find "less stressful" work. i dont know what they're even talking about at this point. i live in a tiny ass town, the only jobd available are retail and fast food.

im. im at wits end. im struggling to even pay a third of the bills by selling artwork. i cant afford medicine or therapy. i cant afford a doctors appointment. i cant get a car. i cant even buy a new photo id right now. i dont even know what steps to go from here, or what lawyer to talk to.

commissions will most likely be at a standstill while i try to recover from this. im sorry.