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7 years ago
Things have been very rough these last few months. Over december i have had two family members pass away and a pet got very sick. Last month i had one of my ferrets, Romulus, pass away. What was the most harmful was when i found out a guy i was dating basically cheated on me by getting together with another guy and did not tell me. I have been struggling with this for months.m either
I don't know anymore. I don't know what to do.
I have tried to be kind. I have tried to be friendly. I have tried to connect with others and open my heart to them. In the end i am either shot down or used.
It sucks that really the only things that matter is if you make art, have art, or are someone people can play with to fill a need until someone else shows up. It hurts. It hurts so much and if you say anything, you are just making drama and need to move on.
I just want to give up. I want to close myself off. After all it seems if i let someone in, they just end up hurting me and go on with a clear conscious.
I don't know anymore. I don't know what to do.
I have tried to be kind. I have tried to be friendly. I have tried to connect with others and open my heart to them. In the end i am either shot down or used.
It sucks that really the only things that matter is if you make art, have art, or are someone people can play with to fill a need until someone else shows up. It hurts. It hurts so much and if you say anything, you are just making drama and need to move on.
I just want to give up. I want to close myself off. After all it seems if i let someone in, they just end up hurting me and go on with a clear conscious.
Deeply sorry to hear about your woes... the passing of loved ones near and close, Rommy and the unwanted pains of a faltering relationship... icing on a bitter cake to say the least. *hugs tight*
i think this winter, into the new year has been hard on a lot of us. i lost my dad, troubles moving into an apartment, losing my car's transmission, a bout with foot pain and now the flu - its just been one thing after another. But realize, TK there is something just around the corner... you may not see it, and i know it seems hopeless... but it *is there*.
Please don't give up! And - if you need to - feel free to keep in touch!
*with hopes and hugggggggggggggggggles*
You're not worthless dude.
Out of so many possibilities it was you who is here now, it’s you who have been making things worth it and I am sure that those watching over you are happy to be by you or have been beside you. Picking up the pieces is the hardest part of all of this, but you are strong enough to do so. Without a shadow of a doubt, the people that took the time to respond to you are also those that care, just never quit. That is all we ask of you, you can always rise above.
With the best of wishes,
GB