Mostly, I don't worry too much about my art. Or, what worries I have are mainly existential and deal mostly with the subject matter.

Related to that (I'll explain how in a moment) I've been offering commissions for a while, and only just recently have been offered some.

I love drawing for others, since it gives me something new, and often strange, to work with.

One person (we'll call him 'Bob' )in paticular has offered to me a chance at two commissions. One of his character, and after completeing that one, another of a Dragon.

I was understandably excited. I needed the money (my tax return came in and has since rescued me) and his character sounded really interesting - not the least because his char was armoured and I love working with armour.

I started on a sketch right away, but it took a bad turn almost right away and gave up on it.
It was late and I figured it wouldn't take me long to finish a sketch once I sat down and dedicated to it, so I went to bed.

Almost two weeks later, I finally get down to working on it again. There are many excuses I could give for why it took me so long to start on it, but they would be just that - excuses.
The real reason is that I simply didn't feel like drawing.

I'm sure many of you who are also artists have spells where you just don't feel like picking up a pencil or stylus. That's more or less what happened here.

When I finally did "get around to it" I forgot where I had put his referance and onyl remembered a few unique features of the character.

So I drew up something that seemed ok to me and sent it to him free of charge and with many apologies and a promise to do another, more accurate one.

As can be expected, it wasn't what he wanted. Fortunatly however, I found the referance to his character and began again. Now I have something that looks more like his char is suppost to be, but the pose is awful and the more detail I try to put in, the more awful it looks.

At one point, I was nearly frantic trying to create something that could possibly make up for how badly I've been treating this commissioner.

If I had been treated this way by anyone I had asked art from, I would be insulted and might even have tell them to forget about it entirely.

I feel awful about how poorly this commission is turning out and what it reflects on me as an artist and as a person.

I've promised that I won't ask a dime from him and that no matter what, I will have a pic for him - but I'm embarrassed and ashamed to think that I'm likely the worst artist he's ever had to deal with.

The only good I can see comming from this is that it has likely scared me away from procrastinating on commissions, but I also fear that it might poison my artistic inspiration on any future pics for others.

I hope I can recover from this blunder.

D.O.P.R