I honestly don't know how to feel right now. My mind has been all over the place with feelings and thoughts, I feel as if I need some help.

I want to feel loved and not so alone. I want to be assured that people do care about me, that I'm needed. I want people to let me know that I actually matter to them, that I have a reason to live. I want to be assured that I can be counted on should someone have a problem, or to hang out with if someone wants to game or grab dinner. I know I have a few true friends, but they can sometimes be busy, or live further away, I'm not denying that.

I'm not doing this for drama or attention, I'm doing this because I want to be shown that people want to be around me, that people are willing to help, weather it is strangers or friends I know. I just want to feel like I matter. That's not too much to ask is it?

I don't want to feel or be alone, I don't want to feel left out. Maybe it's FE coming up that might be in part to do it, or maybe the fact that everyone is going to have a suit for it and I feel left out. Maybe it's because I have a room all too myself without company.

I know it starts with me and how I handle things, but I need help. I need assurance that I'm strong, that I can do it. Sure a lot of you I don't know, or never really talked too, but I know a lot of you are good people, who are willing to help or even shed some light on this, maybe share your experiences with it, perhaps tell me how you handled it, maybe give some advice. I'd welcome just about anything at this point.

Note me, leave a comment, or add me on telegram. I'm always down for a talk, or company.