Why bother?

Because for so long as there is life there is a chance for things to change.
I don't know what is going on with you at the moment but please try to hang in there.

I've had a constantly shit weekend lately...Last weekend was bad and now this...

While I can understand that it seems at times that things often look dire there still are just as many chances to find ways to make life not as bad as some might imagine. In times where some people are not nice to eachother there at least are also a few nice people who wish to cheer eachother up and wish eachother well.

It surely is sad when things happen to disappoint someone, that shocking events shake us and that at times we feel lost and without company. But that shouldn't stop you from trying to make as many positive experiences as possible.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8562112/ <---sounds to me like you had a good time then. Give it a chance that more good things might happen again, connect with people and start anew. It's never too late to do.

I know for some it sounds cheesy but really, the little things in life can count sometimes more than anything, so try to let the big things not to weigh too much on you and give small things a chance. We all have nice things right in the grasp of our hands by just doing things like taking a walk, listening to music, reading a book. It's nice to try and make the best out of whatever comes at one and to focus on the times when we can feel free from such things like stress and depression.

Some of those things I can't even do though...I have no money, no job. ALL BECAUSE OF MY FUCKING DISABILITY BENEFITS CUTTING ME OFF AND THERE BEING NOTHING FOR ME TO DO ABOUT IT.

Yeah, I read that in your other journal. Isn't there like something small at least like delivering newspapers or taking dogs for walks and such? I thought there are such kinds of jobs where people always search somebody for?

Nobody is even offering. Its all total fucking bollocks and when there is a decent job that I apply for, NOBODY FUCKING WANTS ME AND DOESN'T EVEN GIVE ME A SIMPLE NO.

And other options? Like ever thought about starting to write, maybe? I mean, you could possibly find a passion in it and even start a service form it. Nowadays people manage to do things in all sorts of different attempts.

As for people not telling you why they don't want to take you as a worker you should definitely insist or phone them back so you can find out the reasons. You are actually able to insist on getting said info always.

No one deserves to die. No one deserves to end their life for any reason. We have too much too live for. You stay alive and don't you EVEN EVER ONCE AGAIN think about suicide.

...Perhaps I made myself unclear. I never thought about suicide...I'm just having a really shit weekend and this is the 2nd shit weekend in a row...

Well then, it's not that hard to look on the bright side of life. Just do positive stuff. I really don't see why you're so upset.

How can I when said positive thing has BROKEN ON ME. It doesn't help that the things I want to make me feel POSITIVE I CANNOT EVEN REACH OUT FOR DUE TO NO MONEY.

I didn't know that. Unfortunately I can't really help with that.

*hugs you tight*
Oh jeeze, sorry to hear that.
(and I just HAD to open that flashdrive I got real cheap before Christmas today only for the thing I was trying to do with it to not work anyway...)

Have you put together your resume and sent it to places that are hiring that you'd want to work at?
I just updated my resume yesterday and sent it to my local Game Stop, hoping they'll hire me.

BTW, is there any unemployment or other such things over there?

Otherwise is there anything you can sell or pawn of yours to get money if you're in desperate need for cash?

Yes...I have. And nothing has come of it. Nobody even is remotely accepting me and there's no way I'm selling anything.