I'm deer and now after few years let polar bear me back in world,Bear been in shadow,the cold and block from sun light to just lock away memory's,feelings but the always came to surface no matter what i tried push in to deepest part of my soul.
I tried keep face i'm ok but yet i keep crying,sad,broken even face from all my friends to... sorry only way kind had thought of dealing with lost of my boyfriend o so many years ago in real life...his lose broken me down to just raw sadness still have't gotten over still because every time i seen happy couples it made me think of what i would had but truth never going to happen now.. it grow pit of my own making just made me burrow bear that was me in to it just lock away to move away from broken down grizzly i was...just over time being locked away from light my fur fade to white than just stayed that way from all hope and love i had lost due to his death...even more fact he was younger than me at time he past away he was 27 i was heading to my light 20's when it happened.
forgive me for these journal just huge vent for me like always.. getting stressed so much one family member these not been helping my mood and last night bullshit on sl with people trolling on voice chat made me very upset and down right pissed to wanting use tool blast them out of sim but i used keep my self from doing it.. the not worth trouble.