you stuck awake too eh?

Awake and sad...

aww what's wrong hun? *offers a hug*

-hugs and sighs- Just stressed out...

yea same here. I'm sick, might lose my job, and if I lose my job I lose my place to live and so my mate and I become homeless.

Right now I'm awake with horrible stomach pains. I can't stay out of the restroom.

:/ I hope it works out for you and I'm happy you at least have a mate..

thanks...and I'm sure you'll find a mate. Just don't give up.

I want one like some people I know...

Like how?

Posted xD

Like.. Just so much caring and stuff..

oh...yea those people are hard to come by nowadays...there are so few left.

I'm nice, and cuddly, and caring, and think before I act.. T-T

*nods* you and I both...

I feel like I'm a slut sometimes.. I love like everyone who is nice to me.. But if they stop feeding my attention even a bit.. I feel hurt by them.. But I never get anyone that really strikes me as a forever..

*nods* I know how you feel hun. I used to be like that too. I did find someone one time that I thought I would be with forever and after three years things fell apart. My mate now wants to be with me forever but I just don't know if I can trust someone to not break my heart like that again.

My heart was broken pretty bad about three years ago and I haven't recovered since... I've been sad since then.. And I'm still sad...

same here sweetie...same here....

-pets and hands cookies-

*smiles softly and breaks the cookie in half, giving you half*

-nibbles and hands good karma- I've been very known for jinxing people..
I told this one man that his money exploiting was bad and karma would get him..
(He cheated the system like $5,000+) and within a week of tell him that... His entire side business (He claims 10,000 - 15,000 a month) was banned from Amazon.com and paypal for unethical manipulation. xD
And normally if I feel good towards people.. Good things happen to them. :D
Bad people get bad stuff.. It's proven.. :D

*smiles and hugs you tight* thanks hun. I hope good karma comes to you as well. But for now I must go...my mom should be here to get me any minute now.

Niiiight

eh im rolling around miserably in bed myself

-pets ears- Sowwy steam... I dun know...

duno wat?

If things will work out.. or if I can even move out.. I want a job bad..

well then i dont know either

I hate life ;~;

i dont see why you have to think about it so much, you just give the word and ill move out. Its down to just finding a room mate now

I don't know cause I don't want to fuck this up.

well you cant get anything without risk i guess

I just don't want to fuck up :<

I think I'm going to bed.. I have school at 7am.. It's 4am now..

Tis 3:14 am for me right now D8

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Both xD

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I'm cruising your page so catching up on your life. *smiles* I can' offer any words of "you'll find someone some day" and who knows maybe you have by now I didn't catch that fact :) but I can offer you this from my perspective ... it gets easier with time. I have bad moments still, tonight is a little bit off and I"m *thinks* fairly sad, but the pain and the longing...it numbs with time.

Of course it rather numbs your other senses as well, hence why I describe myself the way I do sometimes when the heart just kind of shrivels up and doesn't feel too much of anything...care, concern, sympathy all go out the window along with that nagging feeling of longing and desire lol

Two things make a huge difference in life, living on your own away from parents and having a job that allows for slightly more than just bill paying. Oh, things are purrfect then but much better. "Money can't buy you happiness, but it can buy you fun and fun goes a long ways towards happiness." -Dave Ramsay

I'm totally in a rambling mood tonight. You seemed very sweet and with a great smile and an effervescent personality that is very uplifting and comfortable with yourself. ^.^

Final note, you mention people being nice to you...thats like ..hmm let me put it like this. For some reason, people aren't even that nice to me. I get as many random haters for how I am as I do random compliments but the compliments never translate over into people irl that wanna do stuff with me :P *feels someone put a pillow over my face and then apply pressure till I pass out to shut me up*

Yeah... I suppose. I just get kind of sad when I know someone doesn't like me even though I TRIED to be a good person. All I can really sad, even with a heavy heart. Even if they hate me, I will do all I can to help.

Gosh a ton of people don't like me. Though I'm a little too flamboyant for main stream so even a ton of furs hate me just for the way i dress or look sometimes. Even though I don't do that all the time *shrugs* I just live by the rule that not much is off limits and there shouldn't these so clear gender lines. We all have masculine and feminine traits and there are times to celebrate each one ^^

Am I flamboyant? o.o

You have a bubbly personality which is usually given that time. I would say in that you are animated in story-telling, then yes in that way you are but not outside of a normal threshold that could exist outside of your orientation :P

Am I annoying or irritating?

Not at all!

See... Half the people love me.. Half the people hate me... Then there are people who love me and try to cuddle me to death and thats a nono and I get mad then they hate me for not loving them o.o

Years of lack of physical contact and including that my parents weren't 'huggers' when i was a kid ensure that I'm also very iffy about personal space and being touched. hehe

Same here. Completely.

Though I might add that my trials with it are much more related to the fact that so few people have ever attempted to 'snuggle' near to me. I think hey see the look of shock on my face when they start to even attempt it *laughs*

Unno xD People like to touch me alot... Apparently I'm adorable and cuddleable ._.

*jealous* Yea, I'm not lol

Its not that great... I almost got raped at AC... I get groped CONSTANTLY... I get bitten... Nuzzled (I hate people rubbing faces on me)... Tickled... Tickled ALOT.. I hate being tickled yet my entire body is deathly ticklish.

I don't think I would have that problem at cons or anything. Some people over time though conjectured that I just appear to be the breed of person that someones doesn't ... touch or get too close too without explicit permission. Which works sometimes, but I don't always like the feeling of being treated like I'm nearly invisible because most people are too afraid to approach me or talk to me. Though it does keep the crazies away.

Im rather too approachable ._.