Hey guys!

So, I haven't really posted in a while, about what's going on in my life. I had my blood labs redone, and it turns out I have Secondary Hyperparathyroidism. I have an appointment with a new doctor of Endocrinology, scheduled for May 14th... so I guess I won't know more, about this condition, until then.

Also, I have been having some major health concerns, regarding my digestive system, and urinary tract. I had to go to the hospital on March 16th, for a bunch of tests, including an ultrasound of my bladder. The tests looked normal, but my function was way off. I ended up, not being able to pee, for nearly 2 weeks! Talk about uncomfortable!

AND, I had my first Cardiology appointment on March 12th... the cardiologist I'm seeing takes the real "complex cases" which my Primary Care Doctor tells me I am... they tested me, and did an EKG on me, so they could determine whether my heart was in good shape, or not. They checked my blood pressure, lying down, sitting up, and standing, and my heart rate was pretty high, while lying down. I've been having dizzy spells, where sometimes I fall to the floor. So he wants to do an Echocardiogram, and monitor my heart for a week, with a small heart monitor, that I can push a button on, when I start feeling dizzy. It will be recording the whole time, but I can push the button, when I feel the symptoms worsen, so they can see exactly what is going on with my heart, when I have these spells. I have passed out a couple of times, and I have just become very dizzy, to the point of falling to the floor, several times. Each time this happens, as soon as I am able, I check my blood pressure, which has become unusually high, and my heart rate has become dangerously high, as well. My Primary Care Doctor thinks I may have Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), and that is why she has referred me to this particular Cardiologist. I was supposed to have my Echocardiogram on Monday, of this week, but when I woke up, there was 4 inches of snow on the ground, so I rescheduled it, for the 16th of April. I really wanted to get it out of the way, but the weather had other ideas. Well, God's timing is always perfect, so I'm sure that there is a reason for my having to postpone the test.

Then, the day after my Echocardiogram, I have to travel down to Philadelphia, to the University of Penn, for genetic testing, so they can properly diagnose my connective tissue disorder. O.o Lots and lots of testing and Doctor's Appointments! I just hope that I start getting some answers soon.

I also have an appointment with a Gastroenterologist, coming up on May 4th... I have been losing weight very rapidly, and I've been having some unpleasant abdominal discomfort. I had another Ultrasound on my entire Abdomen, on March 20th, and everything looked normal, but I'm still having pain, and nausea. My Primary Doctor checked me over, last Thursday, and she feels that my gallbladder may be causing me problems, even though it does not appear, that I have any gallstones, on the Ultrasound. She thinks that I need a Gallbladder Function Test, and that can only be ordered by a GI Specialist. So, I have that consult coming up, as well... So many issues! :/

So, that's what is going on, as far as my health is concerned, at the moment. Other things that are going on, are my needing to have all my belongings out of my Mom's house by May 31st, or my brother will dispose of them as he sees fit. I am struggling here, at home, because of my chronic illnesses, and my disability, to try to get things cleaned up and organized by myself. But I don't have any help. It's just me, working on this huge mess, that my brother and sister-in-law have left me with, in my Mobile Home. They should have helped me get the furniture in here, first, instead of loading my house full of boxes of things that I can't put away, because I have nowhere to go with them. They have done this whole thing completely backwards, and expect me to be able to get all this stuff done, on my own. There are days I wish I could just die, so that I don't have to worry about any of this anymore. I'm not suicidal, but I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting an uphill battle by myself. While I have blood relations, I don't feel I have any family. My only family died in November... My Mom was it. I don't have any support anymore. My health is failing, and nobody seems to care. I could die, and nobody would know until they finally came to my door, and I didn't answer. And that could be weeks... my "family" doesn't check on me, and I don't have any friends, in the area. I am utterly, and completely alone here. Isolated, secluded, and depressed beyond belief. I miss my Mom. I don't even feel I've had the time to grieve her, because I'm too busy trying to clean, organize, and survive... I don't know what I'm going to do, to get everything done, before May 31st. I feel helpless, and hopeless. I just wish I were healthier, so I could get more done...

If you guys think of it, pray for me. Or send me good vibes. Or whatever it is you do. Thanks for reading.