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I hate it when things end up worse. *Rant*
7 years ago
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-A tiny dragon bounds into the room with a small letter in its mouth. It drops it near your feet and looks up at you innocently-
What happened to my ability to help other when they needed it. Like I'm so frustrated with myself and others so often now. I'm frustrated because I can do nothing across this stupid screen but just wait to see if someone is still alive or not. I just hate it. I hate it when people decide ti just leave me for no reason. I just do.
I hate it when others give up. The part I just don't understand are that some are adults and some even younger than me. Where the heck has the will to live even gone?! How could you not hope that things will get better. Even if things seem at their worse its mainly a test. Its preparing you.
Life sucks sure. It'll always suck. Things happen.
Life does not make you at all. You make life. This means that no one made you cut yourself, no one made you suicidal. You are responsible for how you react and do things. You have a choice. Use it.
I'm seriously tired. I've experienced ti many time when a friend of mine threatened never to come back to me. They said they would die, but I can't give up on people. It makes no sense to me at all.
It just hurts so bad. I can't take the constant death. I don't care how much I don't talk with you. When I talk to you and the next you disappear never to say a word for months it'll hurt me horribly.
This is why I want life to hurry up. I want to get to the point where I can be therw for those who are hurting.
Even just being there. I want to try. I have dreams and I bet some of you do too. So what my dreams may be a little far fetched, but I want to try my hardest.
You know why I haven't dropped dead to the ground yet even though I wanted to do it so many times? Because I had dreams and I had the fear to drive me. Everyday I deal will hell because I don't want others to feel it. Everyday I smile to hide my true sadness so no other will be sad.
Sure I may be 17 and some will say "you're still a child. You wouldn't understand. " so what? I know what right is and I know what wrong is. I know that I lived 17 years for a reason because god could of let me die at a few months old when my mother tripped and busted my tiny little head open. He could of said "let him die" but no he brought me here today and I will never foresake my life.
Nor will I give up on anyone else's life.
That's why I'm tired. Its like I'm carrying the weight of everyone on my shoulders and it hurts, but I'm still surviving. I'm still moving and I won't stop till its my time to go.
So please don't give me an escuse why you can just go and end your life. You've survived this long for a reason! Stop blaming yourself for everything. The past is always in the past. You only need focus on what you can do to better yourself instead of crying over spilled milk.
STOP GIVING UP please...
I know some will ignore this, but for all of you out there I care. Even if no one else in the world cares. I care. So please don't give uo because life truly will get better.
-sighs - It pains me everyday ti see that everyone will rather give up than face the challenge in front of them. To take the easy way out instead of making the most of what you had.
This message might hit a wall, but I hope it'll help someone.
I hate it when others give up. The part I just don't understand are that some are adults and some even younger than me. Where the heck has the will to live even gone?! How could you not hope that things will get better. Even if things seem at their worse its mainly a test. Its preparing you.
Life sucks sure. It'll always suck. Things happen.
Life does not make you at all. You make life. This means that no one made you cut yourself, no one made you suicidal. You are responsible for how you react and do things. You have a choice. Use it.
I'm seriously tired. I've experienced ti many time when a friend of mine threatened never to come back to me. They said they would die, but I can't give up on people. It makes no sense to me at all.
It just hurts so bad. I can't take the constant death. I don't care how much I don't talk with you. When I talk to you and the next you disappear never to say a word for months it'll hurt me horribly.
This is why I want life to hurry up. I want to get to the point where I can be therw for those who are hurting.
Even just being there. I want to try. I have dreams and I bet some of you do too. So what my dreams may be a little far fetched, but I want to try my hardest.
You know why I haven't dropped dead to the ground yet even though I wanted to do it so many times? Because I had dreams and I had the fear to drive me. Everyday I deal will hell because I don't want others to feel it. Everyday I smile to hide my true sadness so no other will be sad.
Sure I may be 17 and some will say "you're still a child. You wouldn't understand. " so what? I know what right is and I know what wrong is. I know that I lived 17 years for a reason because god could of let me die at a few months old when my mother tripped and busted my tiny little head open. He could of said "let him die" but no he brought me here today and I will never foresake my life.
Nor will I give up on anyone else's life.
That's why I'm tired. Its like I'm carrying the weight of everyone on my shoulders and it hurts, but I'm still surviving. I'm still moving and I won't stop till its my time to go.
So please don't give me an escuse why you can just go and end your life. You've survived this long for a reason! Stop blaming yourself for everything. The past is always in the past. You only need focus on what you can do to better yourself instead of crying over spilled milk.
STOP GIVING UP please...
I know some will ignore this, but for all of you out there I care. Even if no one else in the world cares. I care. So please don't give uo because life truly will get better.
-sighs - It pains me everyday ti see that everyone will rather give up than face the challenge in front of them. To take the easy way out instead of making the most of what you had.
This message might hit a wall, but I hope it'll help someone.
I'm sorry:/
*Tight Viking Hugs*
But also don't forget about the most important thing in life, yourself. I know you have the love and drive to help others, it's a very amiable thing to do, but also be sure to make sure your physically and mentally fit and healthy. True happiness comes in many shapes and sizes, different for everyone. I know you find happiness in helping others, but you must remember, even if you help someone, if that person can't help themselves then it's a losing battle. Don't put undo stress on yourself trying to help another live their life when your still just only starting your own, if won't be fun trust me on that.
* Sends all the good vibes and hugs*
You deserve the happiness from all the good wishes you have Flame