I'm really sorry if art is slow
My mental state is just so fucked up

About an hour or so ago we (me and my mother) got our dog (Pinto) put down

Yesterday when I came home pinto had lost the ability to move his back legs and couldn't even stand, we tried to help him get back up but it just wasn't going to happen.
this morning my mum and I decided to get him put down, so we called the vet and got him in.

It's so sad to see him go, we've had him since I was little,, but i am happy that he's not in pain anymore

then...there's an extra kick in the gut when they take all the money we have
$400 for everything

My mum just works for tips at a bar and the only income I get is from commissions Because it's impossible to find a damn job in this city

We're planning on selling the house and getting an apartment so we can save more money


I just don't know what to do

I feel so useless and I just want to cry again

Uuuughhhhhh
I'm sorry for being sad and depressing