For the people who are following me...
7 years ago
General
Hello, everyone. Time in no speak a word here.
I've noticed there is some activity in this, my second FA account lately. So I decided to recover it and dust off a bit over there and there.
Cleaned all my inbox and my message centre.
Then I was reading some comments about projects that I was planning to do but with what happened and the little faith that I had, I am afraid that it won't happen (or so I think).
For those who didn't know the reason why I left this account, to summarize, it was for several things, but mainly:
-A group of furry artists from my country harassed me in 2014. I was suffering from severe depression and that harassment prompted me to show my weakest side, my cowardly side. A personal facet of which I haven't been able to overcome at the moment.
-My lack of personal faith towards myself as an artist, which made me look at all my mistakes caused by a perfectionist ego.
-The sabotage caused by several furry artists and people of FA to whom I deposited my confidence as a fan and follower. Especially of a very popular artist here. I began to develop a hatred for him, in which all content that I saw of that artist after what happened to me lowered my spirits, stoned my moral and increased my hatred towards me as a draftsman.
Fortunately and with the help of my boyfriend and psychology professionals, I realized that I shouldn't suffer so much for someone I haven't seen in my life, nor know anything about their personal life.
He's just a "Pet Peeve" to me right now, even I've even taken several of "this certain Captain" drawings as an example of improve more as an artist.
There's a lot of Telegram groups and channels that I'm avoiding because they keep to distribute art from this man. I think I've developed something like an intuitive trigger with that and I've got used to it.
It's been 4 years since I closed this account and I've realized how much I've improved as an artist. I know that as a person I have not improved much as I would like but at least I know that I am someone better than before, someone better than those who hurt me, someone who still suffers with fear, depression and a lot of anxiety but I am someone who thinks I can improve with those problems on their backs.
For those I have hurt: I sincerely apologize for what I caused to you.
For those who hurt me: 4 years have passed since that moment, and you haven't said a single word. I had to pay all this damage with my karma. I stopped waiting for your apologies long ago. It would be a waste of time for you and me to try to negociate. You are part of the lesson from the past. I'm glad to have met you, because thanks that, I'm better than you.
Thanks for the watches, the favorites and the comments here but this is not my house anymore. I invite you to watch
tokenworks and see with your own sight how much I grow as a cartoonist.
See you there and remember the last words I said before dissappearing into Oviblion:
Enjoy the Drawing.
I've noticed there is some activity in this, my second FA account lately. So I decided to recover it and dust off a bit over there and there.
Cleaned all my inbox and my message centre.
Then I was reading some comments about projects that I was planning to do but with what happened and the little faith that I had, I am afraid that it won't happen (or so I think).
For those who didn't know the reason why I left this account, to summarize, it was for several things, but mainly:
-A group of furry artists from my country harassed me in 2014. I was suffering from severe depression and that harassment prompted me to show my weakest side, my cowardly side. A personal facet of which I haven't been able to overcome at the moment.
-My lack of personal faith towards myself as an artist, which made me look at all my mistakes caused by a perfectionist ego.
-The sabotage caused by several furry artists and people of FA to whom I deposited my confidence as a fan and follower. Especially of a very popular artist here. I began to develop a hatred for him, in which all content that I saw of that artist after what happened to me lowered my spirits, stoned my moral and increased my hatred towards me as a draftsman.
Fortunately and with the help of my boyfriend and psychology professionals, I realized that I shouldn't suffer so much for someone I haven't seen in my life, nor know anything about their personal life.
He's just a "Pet Peeve" to me right now, even I've even taken several of "this certain Captain" drawings as an example of improve more as an artist.
There's a lot of Telegram groups and channels that I'm avoiding because they keep to distribute art from this man. I think I've developed something like an intuitive trigger with that and I've got used to it.
It's been 4 years since I closed this account and I've realized how much I've improved as an artist. I know that as a person I have not improved much as I would like but at least I know that I am someone better than before, someone better than those who hurt me, someone who still suffers with fear, depression and a lot of anxiety but I am someone who thinks I can improve with those problems on their backs.
For those I have hurt: I sincerely apologize for what I caused to you.
For those who hurt me: 4 years have passed since that moment, and you haven't said a single word. I had to pay all this damage with my karma. I stopped waiting for your apologies long ago. It would be a waste of time for you and me to try to negociate. You are part of the lesson from the past. I'm glad to have met you, because thanks that, I'm better than you.
Thanks for the watches, the favorites and the comments here but this is not my house anymore. I invite you to watch
tokenworks and see with your own sight how much I grow as a cartoonist.See you there and remember the last words I said before dissappearing into Oviblion:
Enjoy the Drawing.
Altallo
~altallo
:x I'm so sorry people harassed you. That is just awful and no one should have to suffer that :x
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