To those that read my previous journal or have heard from me, my mother's been very ill the past 3 or 4 months with Stage 4b Ovarian Cancer.
She's been in a hospice for a week or more but I got a phone call mid Dark Souls 3ing with friend Floof from the hospice nurse assigned to my mother. She wasn't forthcoming so I had to flat out say "Is she alive?" the answer was no.

Didn't get much sleep, stomach hurts a lot, heart is weird, had to wake my dad up and give him the phone and watch his reaction as I heard her tell him then deal with what happened next.

We're going to the hospice in a few hours to see what's next in the process, I've not gone through this before so I'm not entirely sure what to expect.
Also it's her birthday tomorrow; she would have been 61.

Not cried or grieved really, been preparing and dealing with this for months on a slow burn as Stage 4b is almost a death sentence plus she didn't want chemo, though she wanted to reach her birthday she missed it by about 23 hours.
Honestly it was for the best, the past couple days we've seen her she'd deteriorated a lot and wasn't really conscious anymore, just flickering in an out, unable to say anything coherent.

My dad's falling apart and is p useless so I'm staying as-is to get all the things sorted, it's a relief in a way because she's no longer in pain, we're no longer simply waiting for nature to take its course and now there's a form of progress that can lead us to closure and eventually the healing process.

Edit: Many thanks for all the supportive comments and liking new character Let's Smile, it all means a lot, I'm just not sure how to reply to each person without it all sounding the same but I do read and appreciate them all <3