Not that many of you read this but some people might be wondering where I've been a little last couple of months. I spent the last two months in and out of the yarn Hospital fluctuating between two different local hospitals in this area. This includes everything from emergency surgery for dialysis to getting a new catheter placed in for said dialysis to having a toe turn gangrenous and they are spending about a week debating what they would do about said toe. All said and done I've spent the last two months basically away from home being poked prodded and tested. The results of everything is that now I'm on dialysis 3 days a week for about four and a half to 5 hours until about a month from now when I'll be able to do said dialysis at home but don't have to do it much more often. This will probably be a permanent life change seeing as I'm way over weight to get any form of transplant I have been trying to lose weight but I'm not sure if I can get down to the weight that they want me to be at which is about 10 points on the BMI scale. I've already lost about 50 to 60 lbs but that's another maybe hundred pounds before I'm anywhere close to a transplant. Do you have it off over the last couple of weeks I've been feeling very depressed a lot of this probably has to do with the fact that I'm pretty much on my own. Lately I've just been feeling like I'm more of a convenience or Bank two people.