So i give up with my life.... i am worthless, no friends hardly except feels like only two that cares anymore.... i am done trying to live and be just a bank or trapped or even just in a box that can't get out of..... i am not wanting to hurt others or be hurt anymore. i'm tired of being bullied, hurt, in pain, tired of seeing my life falling apart.... i want to live to be better then what i am to just be something in life to be loved to be happy to smile to just do something...... my life is just hell my job sucks i only get enough to just survive off of and never more to even get what i need with. my family just seems to not care about me anymore ever since i started working especially. i never get asked or told about get togethers i always have to ask them and then when go to them i get turned into the black sheep and just sitting in a corner alone. I am basically put to the side in everything my family does and made as if i wasn't a son or sister or even part of the family. all my life i grew up bullied even to the point i wanted to kill myself and eve now i still think about it....

I want to just be loved to have a family to have friends i can hug and cry on there shoulder if i needed. i am so tired of being alone in pain and hurting. my heart has been broken to much from deaths to life to even just feeling pain from rejection.... i just want to be somebody to someone that cares about me and that wants me a fat ugly guy that is 26 and still a virgin that can't obviously live his life right as a friend........... Guess it is to much to just ask for though