Well, I was going to close off commissions on Wednesday because of the upcoming convention, but serious personal issues are making me close them earlier than I was planning.

I'll admit I tend to rant sometimes when on Discord, especially when I think something is unfair, but there are times were things will come to a head. I recently posted two days ago about how I had an issue with a Warframe match, having the enemies die as soon as they spawn, and thinking the game was being hacked, only to have someone come up and say how I need to join a clan and syndicate in the game for the umpteenth time. Tired of hearing that over and over again (I have stated numerous times I wasn't interested), I told him to shut the hell up about it.

Spent all of yesterday thinking about the incident, and began starting to think of the last time I snapped at someone on Discord. It was starting to cause some bad memories of the incident, and I started to feel those same feeling of betrayal and isolation again. I tried to mention this, in the hopes someone could help me out, only for an admin to immedietly "pull rank" on me, saying I should take my anger elsewhere or I'll be booted from the server (not helped by the issues I had logging into my game earlier, so he probably though I was trying to start something), which is now making my feeling even worse, as I was looking for help, only to be attacked for it before I could explain myself. I decided to mute the server for the time being, as just looking at it is not lifting my feelings, and I don't want to try to ask for help on there again.

I've been trying all night to shake these feeling, but I'm too far into my dark place right now. Took a lot of effort to finish one of my personal projects, but now I have no motivation for anything right now. It's now ever harder to try and pretend everything is okay right now. So, I'm just closing down everything until further notice.