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7 years ago
They told me once, a long time ago, "Life begins at forty." and I always thought it was BS.
Little did I know, for my life feels like it's begging right now, at this point of my life that I'm about to hit 41. And it happened in the most unusual way...just when I was determined to end it all by my own means. I was determined to kill myself, and had a plan. All I needed was the final piece, a double-barreled shotgun.
Luckily for me, there was some sort of...intervention, I guess. Like The Black Crowes' song says, "Sometimes, salvation / In the eye of the storm" - and that was true for me.
I'm an eventual user of the app Whisper, and posted a "suicide note" online...the next day, someone tried to talk me out of it.
That person, that...angel...became my boyfriend.
He saved me...and is continuously helping me...to begin to live. I knew there was a reason I've chosen a phoenix to go along with my dragons tattooed on my body. I am reborn from the ashes.
It's very bizarre how much your life can change from one day to another. My life is a mess, yet...but now I look to the future with hope, instead of being lost on a dark, damp and silent tunnel, leading nowhere.
To all the loners and depressed and suicidals out there...Wait another day...Seek out for help...don't keep it to yourselves.
The life that you're thinking about ending, no matter how terrible it might be, could be just your caterpillar form. If you feel trapped, you might be in a cocoon stage....
Wait another day. Be patient. Your REAL life might be just needing 24 hour to begin.
Peace, brothers and sisters. I'm out for tonight.
Little did I know, for my life feels like it's begging right now, at this point of my life that I'm about to hit 41. And it happened in the most unusual way...just when I was determined to end it all by my own means. I was determined to kill myself, and had a plan. All I needed was the final piece, a double-barreled shotgun.
Luckily for me, there was some sort of...intervention, I guess. Like The Black Crowes' song says, "Sometimes, salvation / In the eye of the storm" - and that was true for me.
I'm an eventual user of the app Whisper, and posted a "suicide note" online...the next day, someone tried to talk me out of it.
That person, that...angel...became my boyfriend.
He saved me...and is continuously helping me...to begin to live. I knew there was a reason I've chosen a phoenix to go along with my dragons tattooed on my body. I am reborn from the ashes.
It's very bizarre how much your life can change from one day to another. My life is a mess, yet...but now I look to the future with hope, instead of being lost on a dark, damp and silent tunnel, leading nowhere.
To all the loners and depressed and suicidals out there...Wait another day...Seek out for help...don't keep it to yourselves.
The life that you're thinking about ending, no matter how terrible it might be, could be just your caterpillar form. If you feel trapped, you might be in a cocoon stage....
Wait another day. Be patient. Your REAL life might be just needing 24 hour to begin.
Peace, brothers and sisters. I'm out for tonight.
