Quick warning. Lotsa bitching beyond this point.
So lately Ive had a good moments. Ive had friends and a girl that was about to move into serious relationship. Here whats gone fucked up.
One of my friends got tired of working at McDonalds and quitted it. Good for him, I cant deny that. Also he decided to move to Warsaw to his twin brother by the end of this month. Keep in mind we understand each other the best in the entire group. I cant imagine how much Ill miss that son of a bitch when hes gone. Before he will leave, hell throw a bday party with his bro over here. So as step foward in my relationship with my crush I wanted to take her to that party. But she refused stating that she already is meeting with someone else and that wouldnt be fair with that guy. We had a dates(at least thats what I called them) a while back and we enjoyed our company but that was a punch in the gut for me. I have no idea what to do. I dont feel like drawing, playing games, watching movies etc. My free time since yesterday looks like this:
I lay in the bed, listening to depressing songs and thinking where did I go worng, is it my fault and all that shit. Im tired. I need to rest from that madness cuz I have weird thoughts on my head and I srly dont want to make any of them to happen.
Sorry guys, Im puting everything on hold. Even paid commissions. I just need to be alone. Again. For a while longer.