I been having depression and anxiety disorder for a while now. but my parents think I am Just spoiled. Yesterday celebrity chef Anthony Bourdain comited suicide. just like how many others with depression did. my mother straight up said in an arrogant voice " these people are too spoilt" I lost my temper. My parents do not know how painful it is to have depression its like a demon that is slowly draining my life force. It is painful and hard to stop.

when I am depressed my father threatens to hit me. and always shouts at me to "checkmate Myself"
but it is hard and the negative toughts keep on filling my mind until i have a panic attack or just be depressed.
i feel So alone at the moment ....like nobody cares.