I don't like opening up about my life problems, anxieties and depression, as I hate being pitied and don't wish to come across as a whiner. Still, as there are a fair number of people who follow me, I feel it's only fair that I give some update as to my emotional state. Right now, things aren't looking good for me.

I'm trying to stay upbeat and maintain a positive self-image, but approaching 10 months without a single job offer, I'm finding it increasingly difficult to remain optimistic about my chances. I didn’t expect things to be easy after graduating from college and moving to California, but I didn’t plan on being unemployed for this long. Nor did I expect all my backup plans to also go-up in smoke.

Lately I’ve felt like a dead man walking in every interview I manage to get my hands on. I knew I'd have to start by doing entry-level jobs; demeaning supporting roles while I built up my resume. I accepted that. What I didn't expect was not even being able to pin down one of those positions. Every time they’re entry level jobs I’ve either done before or my university education qualify me for; none of that matters. There’s not a single tactic from peers, professors, mentors and counselors I haven’t tried. No amount of can-do attitude seems capable of getting the job done; more and more I’m coming to believe I’m the problem. Was all that money I spent getting a college degree all a waste? Two years after graduation, I don’t see any other way of reading it.

I don’t know how much longer I can carry on like this. My self-esteem’s a wreck and I just don’t know what else there’s left for me to do.