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being a disappointment to yourself
7 years ago
i know im quiet here.ive said before i'm not a very social person, and i never have much to say. but i figure venting here wont bother anyone, i dont think many people read journals.
im just so frustrated and fed up with art. i have been working non stop for the last few months, on patreon, trying to keep up with work for people and coms and stuff, and to be honest, i feel like i have made very little gains. people have told me opposite, but i just so disappointed with myself and everything i do, i've really come to hate myself.i watch others make what feels like enourmous gains, and i am still just not making enough ground. it feels like something is just wrong with me, and i'm incapable of being what i want as an artist.
i want to end this pity party by thanking everyone who watches, comments, hops on the patreon and buys from me, everyone who supports me, i am terrible with words, so all i can say is it means so much to me you find me worth your investment and i try really, really hard to be worth every one of you people's time
im just so frustrated and fed up with art. i have been working non stop for the last few months, on patreon, trying to keep up with work for people and coms and stuff, and to be honest, i feel like i have made very little gains. people have told me opposite, but i just so disappointed with myself and everything i do, i've really come to hate myself.i watch others make what feels like enourmous gains, and i am still just not making enough ground. it feels like something is just wrong with me, and i'm incapable of being what i want as an artist.
i want to end this pity party by thanking everyone who watches, comments, hops on the patreon and buys from me, everyone who supports me, i am terrible with words, so all i can say is it means so much to me you find me worth your investment and i try really, really hard to be worth every one of you people's time
Thats all im gonna say
One thing you should focus on is burnout. Thats what I get out of your journal, where you are doing a lot of work yet it doesn't seem to reflect that. First thing you need to do is stop comparing yourself to the legends on FA. They have been drawing like this for over a decade. It's one of the worst moves to compare yourself to someone super talented because all the motivation goes away.
One suggestion others do that may help is that you might want to do is open up monthly slots for commissions. Depending on how much art you do, you're going to need to find a ratio that helps you get art out and feel like you are progressing. Not sure how much you want to do, but I've seen artists that do 3 a week, 9 a week, 10 per month, etc. That would probably help your progress issues.
Aaaaanyway. I wish you luck in the art realm. :3
But I do appreciate your work.
In all seriousness I wish that there was more I could do to help.