ME

I changed a lot in past few years, and again after months. I don't know if it's good or bad, but I definitely feel change. I don't know if it's better or worse for me. *sigh* I don't know what I will do in next months.

MY BODY

I can't lose my weight, being around 230lbs fat... My eyes are also weaker and weaker... My weight and eyes problem started when I was 6 years old. That's bad, because I'm physically unable to do many excercises and using computer is more problematic, but I can't resist some things.

MY BEHAVIOUR

The worst part of my observations. Full of laziness, but I also noticed some changes in my world perception. I became more sensitive for situations from past and, honestly, while looking at some arts. Seeing scat, gore, skulls and melting in vore still fills ne with sadness, but looking at old arts or seeing things I know I will be unable to do is... Depressive. Trying not to think about it is rather bad. I can't calm down and make me happy again. It's sad for me, but I can't do anything about it... However, if I see situation when someone wants digestion, digestion is "blank", prey is a villain, then it's OK. In other cases it hurts my fragile personality.
My behaviour is still creating and it'll never finish, but I need help. I easily give up, not giving any chance for another try. Friends are supportive and it is VERY BIG ADVANTAGE.
Observations brung also disadvantages - addictions. These are ruining my plans sometimes. Using phone instead of waking up at 9AM for example. Well... My character is changing a lot too. I am very sensitive, I'm trying to be more supportive and more sociable, but, honestly, I can't reach the goal.

MY SOUL

*sigh* Well, I have so many sins in my life, but I try to do everything to make them happen in smaller amount of time. It's hard for me, but I do my best. I didn't observe any difference in my soul. It's still the same way.

So that's all for now. Nothing more, nothing less. It's for interested in my life scraps and I just wanted to describe it while being in a bad mood. Well, I can't call me a poor guy, but I want to tell what's on my mind. I hope it wasn't a problem.
That's all for now. For more info, note me or text me on Telegram (@HarkonRedfield)