So, months if not a year has gone by and you've seen practically no activity, I wont make excuses, i couldn't come up with a single fucking thing to do despite having all the spare time in the world to do so! i can only guess why i was in such a loop for so long but that literally doesn't matter anymore.

I don't know if I'll be able to stay online, i cant hardly justify myself even getting out of bed most of the time, i guess this journal is more of a "im not dead" sort of deal.