Last year's 27 years a lulser was a kind of self-depreciating post. I'm happy to report that I've toned down that self-hatred but it's still here in the form of persistent inwardly directed anxiety.

Thing are better though. I have a great job, for instance, and my parents who were estranged have seen each other more and more, and I even took them out to dinner for my Birthday. But the severe anxiety and depression haven't gone away; bits of behavioral issues have...well...seeped out.

Sometimes it's procrastinating on basic everyday normal tasks, sometimes it's handling basic information, and sometimes it's doing literally nothing the whole day with a complete brain fog and unable to feel positive about future events. Other times, it's passive aggressive behavior towards people that mean no harm.

I've put off help for a while, and I'm glad that I'm finally seeing a doctor on wednesday and etting back on meds. I've tried fighting this for a long time on my own, but I've accepted that sometimes, when society throws a lifeline, even a crutch, it can help.

Here's towards a calmer, brighter future. I hope this year goes better for you all too, whoever reads this. :3 Good vibes.