Hello fuzzy folk of the internet.

Here we have the first of many installments of the ponderings of a human being who likes to pretend he's a fairy fox on the internet. Whether you read or not is entirely up to you. That being said if you choose to do so, be warned I am a notorious rambler.

So today I'mma talk about ghosting, something which I am very guilty of doing, albeit unintentionally. Hey, the fact that I am on my third account and am only now making attempts to reconnect with people should tell you that! but allow me to poorly justify my actions to you.

My mind works in very peculiar ways, I definitely have some strong avoidant traits that kind of make me scared to talk to people if I haven't done so in a long while. I guess I have this inner voice telling me that they are definitely going to be disappointment, hurt or angry with me for not talking to them for so long and will immediately reject my communication. Which may be true in some cases but thankfully some of you on here have welcomed me back very kindly.

It's not just FA either, my best friend lives who lives all the way up in Nottinghamshire who I regularly communicated with via Facebook Messenger has also had to put up with my silly mind doing it's silly things and convincing me that she would hate me. Took up the courage to finally talk to her and she's totally cool with it all. I guess I'm letting my negative thoughts kind of dictate my actions, which is something that I have now acknowledged and will work toward fixing.

I think now that I am living independently (or as independently as one can consider a room in a house of multiple occupation) things should be easier, I have a lot more free time and can use that time to work on various writing and video projects and of course reconnect with those who wish.

Anyway, that's my ramble for the day~