hey guys, long time no see ; _ ;

i'm so sorry for my absence. i don't have much of an excuse other than this year being s o horribly draining. to be honest i don't like sharing personal things much, so im not gonna go into detail. i've just had to deal with so many emotionally and mentally draining issues ever since the beginning of the year; it has, quite literally and without fault, been one thing after the other. once one problem resolves, another would surface being twice as overbearing as the last. what makes it worse is that, for the past SEVERAL months, the issues weren't important at all and could have easily been avoided, but i blame myself for getting involved in situations with imminent outcomes that i should have predicted from the start. and despite being insignificant, it takes one straw to break the camels back. u feel?

with that being said, nothing has been too awful or detrimental to my life or well being, so please don't worry! no, i haven't been very stable, but i could certainly be worse - nothing i can't handle, y'know. it's just been a huge dent on my motivations and, as stated, mental energy. it got to the point where i couldn't push myself to do a n y t h i n g except Required (albeit personal) Pieces for deadlines or simple drawings to keep myself sane.

regardless, it's no excuse for my silence on this front. and i definitely want to apologize for being gone so long with NOTHING to show for it, and nothing to say. for those of you who waited on me for owed art i want to thank you for your patience. all things considered, i'm finally in a better state of mind, and all the shit from before has finally begun to calm down and give me time to heal and get my priorities straightened out.

god and not to mention my CTS has been Extremely Frequent. i finally went to the doctor to actually get it diagnosed a few months ago (embarrassingly enough it was self-diagnosed based on feedback from other friends w the same condition, and things i've read and learned, but i just hate going to the doc LOL, took me 5 years to actually do it) but, as i predicted, it's the real deal. i'm doing my best to take better care of it, but it hasn't stabilized for weeks now. by that, i mean: when it begins to flare up i have to rest for days and take anti-inflammatory medication until it begins to feel completely, or for the most part, better. aaaand. it. hasnt felt better. lmao. its bearable, dont worry! i'm not doing anything dangerous, but it's a pain in the ass and i ain't gonna pretend like it hasn't inhibited my art.

in any case. i'm getting better, everything is daijoubu as of right now. i'm gonna be slowly making a comeback here, now that im getting actual motivation to do so. and with that, hopefully i'll be able to slam dunk some YCHs and tentatively open commissions again. i already have one spicy YCH pending that im gonna post this week and im so excited to work on it if it sells.

on the bright side i made my first partial fursuit this year within a week (i rly wanted it for a con and i had help paying for it so I COULDN'T N O T MAKE IT). it's of my other (main) fursona, but now i want to make one for Woffreen............. im so weak. i might share pics later.

thanks for reading, if you. read. lmao. i hope everyone is having a great year so far. feel free to drop a comment if you want to just talk u w u