I'm not dead, thankfully.

I've been meaning to update this for a while, but stuff keeps piling on, seems like I can't really seem to have a decent month even.

I was hesitant on giving a full disclosure of what lead to me being away for this long, cuz it involves someone else, but things just scaleted quickly out of reach ever since october 2016. Since I will sharing no names I think it doesn't really expose anyone, but I need to come clean, cuz I've already given the wrong impression here.

Back in october 2016, my roomates's (who's also my best friend) mom was killed in a car robbery, almost exactly a year after her brother passed away, dealing with that was too much for her so she has a pretty bad breakdown, that's when things began, since that night we had to go identify the body, and we had a hard time trying to evern retrieve it, since she had a bad relationship with her family, so we were alone trying to figure stuff out, and given the whole situation in which it happened, things got more complicated.
After we got that sorted out, the funeral brought it's own issues, as my friend had to deal with her family, and since her bad relationship with them stems from her mom not getting along with them, you can imagine how the funeral went, she was destroyed, and we had a lot of stuff to sort out, with her mom's business, as well as what was gonna happen with her house and other stuff.

In short, from october till january, we were dealing with all sort of stuff, and things didn't went good at all, my friend got suicidal and has been under severe depression ever since, with that downtime I enter in a lot od debt, as well as wasn't able to keep up with the work backlog, and to make matters worse, my health wasn't good , as you may remember on my last journal, the whole thing with the allergies and all the meds,left my body in a pretty bad spot, and my hard drive died at the end of the month.

From that point onward, everything just spiraled out of control, in the end my friend had to move in with another friend since I could no longer help her, I was barely getting by with a couple jobs I get from friends, and couple commissions from the forum and things kept like that for most of last year, things seemed to improve a bit at the end of last year, but nope, old injury I had in my back in 2015 still was causing issues, I have cronic back pain since, but sometimes it gets unbearable.

This year seems to be no different, as earlier this year my video card got fried in a power outage, howver a friend let me borrow his card for a while, so here I am, I'm gonna try my best to make things right, and make a last ditch effort trying to fix eveyrthig.

Sorry for being away this long, but it was out of my hands, so to my commissioners, I'll be messaging ytou all during today and tomorrow, I've lost quite a few of the progress I had with ost of the pics, but I've sent a good deal of screenshots that will allow me to restart them.

Ifrit.