this is something i wanted to pull out from my chest for a while

as many known, last year, i....had a lot of things, for starter, as many known in october more like or so, me and my family were living in a house we were paying rent, the owner of the house planned to get us out but all of sudden, another person claims to be the real owner of house.

as not many know, the owner lost the property because he was so stressed about the legal system he had that he ended in the hospital in USA, we never knew about him since then and we speculate that maybe he didn't survived because we heard it was really severe, we thought that the new owner would let us be there for a nother while since we supported him.......

we were so wrong, the new owner lied to us and wanted us to get out too, giving us the eviction order, this happend..literally in december, near christmas, we thought we could stay a little more so we could get out AFTER christmas....but they didn't gave us a chance, he packed all our stuff and spent a lot of money, from my mother, father, father of my brothers and even myself cooperated to moveout, we lost every cent before christmas....we couldn't celebrate well christmas for ourselves, but i give thanks to my aunt and the rest of our family giving us support to celebrate christmas with them, i was so happy that day that i knew we still had a family to support us... my aunt, my grandma and the rest of the family of my mother's side, we were neighbors before we moveout so gthey knew every little thing that happend to us, they gave us all the support even in the moveout, i couldn't be so grateful rn, i was, relieved we known there is support still for us.

we celebrate alone the new year this time because, we lost our last cent on all the moveout, but we celebrate and i said to myself: ''this is a new beginning''

january of this year, i decided to go study in an university, and study graphic design, before i even started, i needed to do 2 large psychological exams,(to identify if i have depression, different thoughts, asperger, austism or ect.) to see if they could help me,i have asperger, the university has psicologists to help any student in case the university was pretty rough for them, they offered it and all that, i thought hey, since i'm pretty special, maybe they can help me..........those lying bastards, at the first 2 months of the university i started had problems, depression hit me so hard that had days i been having nightmares, being sick of many stuff especially of coliitis and panic attacks, i had nights and mornings that i trow out my homework of the table and cry in a desperate way,

at the third month, one of my classmates knew i had panic of attacks and there was a day i was so bad that she took me out of the class because of my problem, she sent me to the director's office to seek me some psychological help, so they asked the number of my parents and talk personally with them, and suggested a more professional psychologist for a special therapy for me, but i found something.....peculiar...... after when my classmate sent me to the director's office, the psychologist checked in the pc my psychology exam for this to identify if i have anything (as i said i had asperger)....it was empty, they didn't fill the large exams in their pcs i did for nothing, the exams detects if the person has suicidal thoughts, WHAT IF I SAID YES AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN KNOWN? i noticed the lack of administration the university had.
i started to take therapy, my psychologist told me to ask the teacher if they can help me since i have asperger, then when monday hit, i asked to a teacher if there is anything that can help me with my special problem, the teacher had an expression that didn't believe me at first and told me to ask to the superior about this, because ''i don't look like i have this'', at first i didn't noticed because of my lack of understanding, but i don't need to look like im drooling saliva or something that makes me i'm having a hard time in the exterior of my body, thats ignorant of someone you called the professor of ''psychological communication'' in my harsh opinion, he even compared me with someone it looked like it had more problems than me, YES i know, but don't compare my classmate with me, if you noticed that, why you didn't say anything to help him besides being an ass?.
so anyway, i went to the superior and told her that i have asperger and panic attacks, so i asked her if there is anything that they can help me with the teachers, she said: ''sure''
the bitch 3 days later, told me ''she can't help me to change their way of teaching for me because they don't want to go slower''

OK!so, why in the FUCK, you tell you are going to help students in any psychological problem if the teachers don't raise up their asses to help someone in need? why you give the hand to stand up someone and later push them harder than the fall it got? , THAT PISSED ME OFF, so hard, i was furious! i didn't care of the grades i got anymore, i reprobate 3/6 classes because the teachers didn't wanted me to help me or at least say: ''hey zeus, we can help you in the next quarter to understand our classes better'' NOTHING, THEY DIDN'T SAID SHIT, THEY GAVE ME THE BACK, i prefer going to a university that they don't give the hand than going to that one again, i was so unmotivated, depressed, seeing my bad grades at the last of the quarter, i was going to start to 2 quarter ......but............





when i got the paper of my bad grades...i talked with my mother i was going to come back later because the classes....and told her the bad news i had with this school, she knew i would had the bad grades because i told her how bad i was going, after calling her..i called my dad the same news.............later............... i just got out of that school, depressed...angry....i didn't wanted to stay there anymore...so i went downhill of the school, go to the center and stay in park....i didn't assisted class...none...i just gave up with their bullshit, i saw fountain, and stand there for...over a half hour. i was.........relaxed, calm.. i grab a peso, and flip to the fountain...and wish something...that somehow...it become true



i called my father again, he told me he was going to the center and told him i wanted to go with him, i told him i was gonna wait for him in the taxi stop, when my dad came, he took me to a restaurant and eat something, i didnt eat anything that morning because it was late so im happy that my dad bought me something, and that moment...i told him: ''i want to leave this university''

my dad understand me, after we ate, he told me to go together to the movie teather, i told him yes, because i was so delicate right now that i was holding my emotions, my father then called my mother and she was ok, both gave me their support and i went to see the avengers infity with him hehe....the next week, i said goodbye to my classmates personally, and grab my documents from the school so i don't go in there anymore, i leave the university because you know all the reasons now.

this morning...i said goodbye to my dad because he will go out of the country between 3-6 months, i will not see him for a while because he will work in some documents, and now i'm gonna miss him, but i know he will be ok and come back now.

and now...here i am, writing this story i had...this year sucked balls....hehehe...but..after the school's shit

......i decided to make me the paypal thingy,  simply-a_watcher helped me to make one, thank you so much for that, and now, i'm making some commissions so i can relax and think what to do in my future while i grab some money for future studies

after opening...some of you guys commissioned me, all of you end happy or at least satisfied with my work, and i'm so grateful because everyone..the furry community, gives me all the support i need...you been supporting me my weird fetishes, some watched me and some unwatched me in process of this 6 years in being in the furaffinity community, all of you, all of you who courage me to keep drawing, to keep my chin up, my watchers , especially my friends and family...thank you so much, you are a helping a little bird need to fly again. and i hope i can still draw for everyone, at least if its a little weird in kinky side..

thanks...everyone, really. i hope your life goes well because of that, you helped me a lot, and thank you for having time to read all my sad story that end happy somehow

you deserve more than a cookie now haha, have a great day and year. and an excellent future too.