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7 years ago
Hey there people that still wanders around on FA and actually follows me.
Ive hitted 3000 pageviews a little while ago and just wanted to thank anyone who did, and thank anyone that cares.
I know I haven't uploaded a song in 9 months, and I want to explain why that happened.
Back in October 2017 I tried to go to a college with a mindset that I hopefully get through the selection, that I maybe have found something that I could do everyday without that it matters how I felt, that I even when I'm angry, or sad, or happy, that I could make something. But it didn't happen.
In December I got the news that I haven't been chosen and I was at first upset, but not really angry, I didn't really care not to have been chosen because I know I have things to learn... But at the end, it hitted me more than it maybe should.
A few months later I tried again, they gave me a new chance because I didn't had another place to go, or an idea of what I want to do, and that failed again.
I knew I'm not perfect at making any songs, but I know as well that I am not the worst. Why couldn't I join a place where I can learn how to be better, if I was not good enough for a school. I said to myself that it is just a marketing thing and because I have a not so common taste, they couldnt do anything with me.
But because I got declined twice, I couldnt any songs anymore, I even lost interest about it for a while.
I miss making the songs, but whenever I open the music program, the only thing I can do is mess around for 5 minutes, and its gone again.
At the moment I don't have really an idea how my life will look like, and I do matter about my future, which makes it actually kinda sad for not having something...
I may keep sticking with stories in my head, writing them down as best as I can, and hopefully one day I can make a story that is readable for others, and so that they can enjoy what I write.
At least, thanks for reading, and watching me, hopefully the group of friends, watchers, grows over the time Im here, that makes me happy at least.
If you ever want to say hello, my notes are always open.
Ive hitted 3000 pageviews a little while ago and just wanted to thank anyone who did, and thank anyone that cares.
I know I haven't uploaded a song in 9 months, and I want to explain why that happened.
Back in October 2017 I tried to go to a college with a mindset that I hopefully get through the selection, that I maybe have found something that I could do everyday without that it matters how I felt, that I even when I'm angry, or sad, or happy, that I could make something. But it didn't happen.
In December I got the news that I haven't been chosen and I was at first upset, but not really angry, I didn't really care not to have been chosen because I know I have things to learn... But at the end, it hitted me more than it maybe should.
A few months later I tried again, they gave me a new chance because I didn't had another place to go, or an idea of what I want to do, and that failed again.
I knew I'm not perfect at making any songs, but I know as well that I am not the worst. Why couldn't I join a place where I can learn how to be better, if I was not good enough for a school. I said to myself that it is just a marketing thing and because I have a not so common taste, they couldnt do anything with me.
But because I got declined twice, I couldnt any songs anymore, I even lost interest about it for a while.
I miss making the songs, but whenever I open the music program, the only thing I can do is mess around for 5 minutes, and its gone again.
At the moment I don't have really an idea how my life will look like, and I do matter about my future, which makes it actually kinda sad for not having something...
I may keep sticking with stories in my head, writing them down as best as I can, and hopefully one day I can make a story that is readable for others, and so that they can enjoy what I write.
At least, thanks for reading, and watching me, hopefully the group of friends, watchers, grows over the time Im here, that makes me happy at least.
If you ever want to say hello, my notes are always open.
