About 5 months ago... I met you. You were just a person I was talking to, bitching about my problems. I didn't know, you'd end up being the most wonderful human being I'd ever meet. I didn't know, you'd change my life in ways I didn't think possible. I was going through a time where... I didn't feel I could trust anyone. Been broken and discarded countless times. Then you came along. I know now, what it feels to receive unconditional love. I know you hate these public posts... thats why I'm posting it here. Its the social media platform I have the least friends on, and I know that no one reads what I write here anyway XD. And I'm posting it because... well it's your birthday 10 days... And... well with me having 2 jobs now, I can't come visit you.

I hate how I have to hide you from people I know... because no one understands polyamory and I just don't feel like dealing with the drama. Because honestly, you're the only reason I'm doing so good right now. You gave me the push I needed to move.

I'm also posting this because... tomorrow is 5 years since john died... and I feel, the best way to respect him and thank him for leading me to you... (You really do remind me of him a lot, probably why he led me to you... he knew you'd treat me like both your queen and your kitten) Is by pubically thanking him... even if no one sees it. Its the effort and thought that counts. At least he would think that. When me and you met... you told me you hoped you could live up to his belief in you. The fact that you gave me enough self confidence to leave that hell hole of a town I was living in... is proof that you have. But I know you and I know that doesn't mean you're going to stop. You're gonna keep trying to live up to his belief.

Anyway... To end this cheesy ass shout out to you... Happy early birthday my love... and thank you to john, For looking out for me even after death.