I never learn do I....how many times is it going to take for me to get hurt to get this whole being trusting thing out of my system....the way it's looking I honestly don't think it's going to happen...and all fo this emotional pain that continues to come on is going to drive me off a cliff. I...really need to put a cork in this hole....probably start staying with the group I already know will be there for a person if they were down...and stop leaving pieces of my heart on my sleeve just to have them snatched away..ugh...People and their habitual selfishness...The person doesn't matter any longer...as for the selfishness. I was referring to what most all people obviously suffer from. God it hurts...my worst fear is always "is this person just using me." I get hit with it big time tonight...Found out someone was only around to have fun getting off...they called themselves my friend but when push comes to shove they were nothing but shitbags..I'm tired...so very tired of dealing with people...kinda makes me wish I didn't join the military because now I have to deal with them everyday..no way of knowing who to trust and who not to trust because we're all apparently supposed to be a team..