hi everyone! aahh i dunno how to even say what i wanna write, but i've been gone the past week except for social media.. and even then that wasn't really something i spent my time involving myself in :')

but for anyone who remembers my health issues about my arthritis and specifically my swollen finger i've finally found what's been happening with my body, but it took a week to really process the lab results and what the doctors told me, and it was kind of rough and full of really high emotions. i couldn't work under the stress of what i'd been told and this is why, specifically that one auction for the sticker sheet got removed, because i couldn't take on more work when i was feeling already so behind on things i already owed even in the face of an emergency.

a week ago, give or take- i was diagnosed with lupus, which is autoimmune and chronic and lifelong pretty much. it hit really hard but i think i'm finally okay again enough to come back and get to work and stuff. the break i took was really needed since it was hard to accept and i was feeling really upset and scared for my future and lack of "control" over my health. but, looking back at every symptom ive had even from years ago, it really does explain a lot of things, even simply down to certain behaviors and things ive felt as well as my mental health and everything too. it's relieving, at least, to have somewhat of an answer even if the diagnosis isn't very clear at all in terms of the how's and why's.

i've been prescribed medication to suppress my immune system and aspirin to prevent clots and stroke and stuff, and so far the only thing the lupus has been affecting, as far as anyone knows, is my joints causing the arthritis. otherwise, for the most part, i think i'm okay and caught the diagnosis in time to prevent any destruction to my body any further.

that being said, im not really too excited about suppressing my immune system and being more susceptible to sickness and everything but i'm doing whatever i can to take care of myself, which includes seeing the right doctors to make sure i stay healthy and will continue to be okay.

anyways, i wanted to let you guys know since ive been kinda... silent about myself for a while, and its really for no other reason other than ive been trying to work out things with my health and i finally have a direction to go in, which is great news, even if a bit hard to swallow and cope with. but i believe i'll be able to get through it. and also ive been pretty busy and focused on providing content for my patreon solely as my main income but i'm hoping to do more art for the public soon too as there are some changes coming with my health, so more plans are being thought up.

thanks for reading and i hope you're all having a great day<3