https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Seriously. Give them a call. Or chat.

1-800-273-8255

I was suicidal a couple of years ago myself. It's not fun to say the least, but you can pull through it; even if you feel like you don't want to or there's no point.

This fandom doesn't define you. It doesn't define me. It's a hobby. It's a community. It's a part of your life that can easily fit into other parts, so long as you want it too.

Take a deep breath, man. It gets better. =)

I hope so. And don't worry, I'm not suicidal. Like I said, my religion prevents it; I may not be very pleased with life right now, but I'm not so dumb that I'd throw away my eternal reward (no Aladdin jokes) just because this finite and temporary existence is turning sour. That would truly be cutting off my nose to spite my face, in every possible meaning of the term. No, right now I'm just irritated that it has to drag on as long as it does before we finally get to something infinitely better. It's ironic how we've done everything we can to extend lifespans, but have made the world we have to spend it in so arguably worse. Yeah people way back when didn't live very long, but at least that meant they didn't have their depressing existences dragged out so long before they entered into a vastly improved existence.

"I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is not a gift that world can give, so don't be troubled or afraid."

John 14:27

There is no need to suffer, nor any reason to follow the path of others. Do not follow their path; make your own. You're a lot stronger than you think.

I sincerely hope so.

You are. I know!

They have free mental health care in Germany this should help http://www.alexianer-berlin-hedwigk.....sychotherapie/ just be sure to use proper traveler insurance during your stay

Aheh, thanks, but I'm not likely to travel across the ocean just so some shrink can tell me something I'm already aware of, i.e. I'm f*cked up in the head.

Believe me when I say I know how you feel. Have felt that way since before you were born, yet I'm still here, like it or not. Most of the time, I do not.

The only thing that keeps me from doing it is I know, beyond any doubt, if I show up there early, my relatives, friends and wife will NEVER give me a moment's peace if I do! Best stay here and live.

You know I'm here for you sweetie, and always will be for you to speak with.

Wow. I am sorry that life has not been the most wonderful experience for you. I dont want to be arrogant and tell you everything will be okay when i dont know all the circumstances. However, maybe because i am younger and still have that naive optimism, I just think it is possible that you could live in both worlds. Both have a life and be a furry. The future is unwritten right? Or maybe God only knows.

Personally, I always felt like there might come some point in my own life where I would have to leave the community behind and "grow up" but i guess it really depends on the person. Hell, maybe I will still be part of this fandom 10 years from now. I just hope you find something that will make you feel more at peace with it all.