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That feel..
7 years ago
When your old scanner is up for grabs on amazon for 58$ but you gotta make bill money cuz it's bills week.
God.
This is why I haven't posted anything recently - A lot of it is traditional work or I'm still WIP with several things.
I want to post more art dang it augh augh augh. I want to post stuff to my instagram and and I wanna draw moreeee.
My microns are on the way.
I've managed to get my hands on several sets of markers thanks to extremely awesome folks willing to pay for them and get art in return. You're all amazing - more so the ones who absolutely adore my traditional work and want me to repay them with traditional work for it! If I can get the right colors, or at least similar, I might try to color cardstock print if I can.
I'm in such a weird mood lately, too like - I never liked working on art or anything, because the pressure of owing work and not having money to pay back or not ever feeling good enough always weighted down on me. It always made me hurt in mind and body and I just wanted to cry a lot of the time. I felt worthless, unwanted, uncared about. I'd see other artists that could get 50+ people all wringing hands to get a chance at a commission from them and got nothing for myself.
I still don't get much, but what I do get I absolutely love you for - I am grateful that you all are patient with me, and allow me room to grow as both an artist as a person with each new piece. I want to grow as a hobby artist more than a commission artist, but I only have to survive the next 3-4 months until I get my degree and graduate and then get a decent job or at least a job that pays me something so I don't have to worry about my kidneys shutting down.
Yeah, medically I am getting worse, but I have no way of fixing it or getting medicine until I can get health insurance again. It's going to be a long time because of the whole 'special sign up' crap with the healthcare system being garbage right now but if it can get me my medicine that I desperately need for my nerve damage and my insulin and what have you, I'll do whatever I can.
God.
This is why I haven't posted anything recently - A lot of it is traditional work or I'm still WIP with several things.
I want to post more art dang it augh augh augh. I want to post stuff to my instagram and and I wanna draw moreeee.
My microns are on the way.
I've managed to get my hands on several sets of markers thanks to extremely awesome folks willing to pay for them and get art in return. You're all amazing - more so the ones who absolutely adore my traditional work and want me to repay them with traditional work for it! If I can get the right colors, or at least similar, I might try to color cardstock print if I can.
I'm in such a weird mood lately, too like - I never liked working on art or anything, because the pressure of owing work and not having money to pay back or not ever feeling good enough always weighted down on me. It always made me hurt in mind and body and I just wanted to cry a lot of the time. I felt worthless, unwanted, uncared about. I'd see other artists that could get 50+ people all wringing hands to get a chance at a commission from them and got nothing for myself.
I still don't get much, but what I do get I absolutely love you for - I am grateful that you all are patient with me, and allow me room to grow as both an artist as a person with each new piece. I want to grow as a hobby artist more than a commission artist, but I only have to survive the next 3-4 months until I get my degree and graduate and then get a decent job or at least a job that pays me something so I don't have to worry about my kidneys shutting down.
Yeah, medically I am getting worse, but I have no way of fixing it or getting medicine until I can get health insurance again. It's going to be a long time because of the whole 'special sign up' crap with the healthcare system being garbage right now but if it can get me my medicine that I desperately need for my nerve damage and my insulin and what have you, I'll do whatever I can.
darkbossman
~darkbossman
Hang in there.
nitocris
~nitocris
Aw man if I could afford it I'd buy the scanner for you. >_<
