The 15th of Sun's Dusk, Tursdas, 2018 Anno Domini

Last entry noted the end of an age (or a world depending on which image fit better). Going with the image in parenthesis, I fell into a rut over the past day or so and thought about the end of the world according to the Bible (bear with me, I'll make the connection). Growing up with the story, I always loved the idea that in the end good will ultimately win (at the time that meant God and his people). Yet, before everything got better (i.e. - a place with out pain or tears or any possible fears), things got harder, much so. This in a way how I feel about the transition I'm going through.
As a Christian, I had bad habits which I despised about myself. While my perspective has changed as a (new) non-christian, some of these bad habits continue to follow, keeping me in a rut. It gets really discouraging after awhile. Still, when we pursue greater things, life can often become more difficult. For example: I am doing NaNoWriMo (which I neglected slightly over the past day or so). For many, this time is full of aspiration (having written part, most, or the entirety of their rough draft), but writing is not always easy. To the contrary, as one blogger put it in an inspirational post yesterday, writing downright sucks. It's hard. You can feel overwhelmed. Any weaknesses or inadequacies seem to stand front and center, not to mention you have the rest of your daily life to live. She's lays the reality out plain. The only response to achieve the NaNoWriMo Goal--accept this and press on. The only way to change at times and get out of ruts is to accept the hardship of changing and move forward. This is me self-preaching (I keep a personal journal where I've said the same lesson *good for reflection*).
On the subject of NaNoWriMo, tomorrow's goal is to do 5k words. Thankfully, I can devote practically the whole day to writing.