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Venting? (advice welcome)
7 years ago
I'm not quite sure this would be classified as a vent, but I figure it's close enough.
The long version:
So a while back I made First_Of_None as a dump for all the negative things I used to post in journals here.
Long story short, the things I put there ended up hurting my friends. Thus, First_Of_None was closed and any things that would be posted there have since been dumped into an actual private repository where they should have been in the first place.
Yet some things my friends have said have stuck with me and continue to rattle around my head, as oft such things do. (As I've said, such matters have been sorted elsewhere and will not be discussed here, save for one).
While normally the things I've journaled privately or otherwise have not greatly moved me, one latest writing has. I feel it has come from a place different than the others, and its message has shaken me. It should be noted that it was written in the wee hours of the morning under the effects of a large quantity of caffeine, but I can't deny the fact that it seems....something else than what is usually written.
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The short version:
I just wrote a personal journal to myself. Rather than my usual posts, this one actually scared me.
I know it's nothing to alert the media about, but it's left me feeling rather odd and I didn't know what else to do. Rather than compound it by writing another personal journal I, for whatever reason decided to write this one instead.
I suppose it could be the equivalent of waking in the middle of the night from a nightmare due to a strange sound in a quiet house. In such a situation I'd certainly welcome the company of someone to talk to, though I'd settle for a cup of hot chocolate and a book with the light on.
By tomorrow it'll just be another personal journal, but for now it's the tail end of something righteously unnerving.
If you've read this far, thanks for bearing with me. Feel free to drop a comment, on this matter or otherwise (needless to say I'd prefer otherwise). Let's talk.
The long version:
So a while back I made First_Of_None as a dump for all the negative things I used to post in journals here.
Long story short, the things I put there ended up hurting my friends. Thus, First_Of_None was closed and any things that would be posted there have since been dumped into an actual private repository where they should have been in the first place.
Yet some things my friends have said have stuck with me and continue to rattle around my head, as oft such things do. (As I've said, such matters have been sorted elsewhere and will not be discussed here, save for one).
While normally the things I've journaled privately or otherwise have not greatly moved me, one latest writing has. I feel it has come from a place different than the others, and its message has shaken me. It should be noted that it was written in the wee hours of the morning under the effects of a large quantity of caffeine, but I can't deny the fact that it seems....something else than what is usually written.
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The short version:
I just wrote a personal journal to myself. Rather than my usual posts, this one actually scared me.
I know it's nothing to alert the media about, but it's left me feeling rather odd and I didn't know what else to do. Rather than compound it by writing another personal journal I, for whatever reason decided to write this one instead.
I suppose it could be the equivalent of waking in the middle of the night from a nightmare due to a strange sound in a quiet house. In such a situation I'd certainly welcome the company of someone to talk to, though I'd settle for a cup of hot chocolate and a book with the light on.
By tomorrow it'll just be another personal journal, but for now it's the tail end of something righteously unnerving.
If you've read this far, thanks for bearing with me. Feel free to drop a comment, on this matter or otherwise (needless to say I'd prefer otherwise). Let's talk.
