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Apparently It's Been 4 Days???
7 years ago
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With how short staffed we are plus yet another person leaving the building, we're pretty much drowning at this point. Just been tired and barely want to do anything when I get home. Finally told the director of the building how I'm at the point of just quitting. (he's the boss of my boss's boss.) We went back and forth for a bit but I haven't read his newest email since *waves hand at window* we're drowning in work.
Although, I did get Ralsei's coat 90% done this weekend in the span of 7hr. Just need a head hole and fix the buttons so it can snap close. I want to point out that I'm super confident in wanting to do something, but greatly underestimate the skill and time needed to do said project. This goes for both Duva's armor and Ralsei. I'm slow at crafting through and through. I'll admit it. I want to keep practicing to get better, but...the results don't match what I envisioned LOL. Doesn't help when I have ideas that end up costing time to fix instead of giving me shortcuts.
Yet again I'm at that point where I'm questioning all of my decisions. Like:[ Is writing my book even worth it? Is the effort for Super Duva justified? Is even with anything worth it?] I feel the root of this is me having to be my own support squad since middle school. My family in general dropped out at middle/high school, I'm one of like 12 ever to graduate high school, and one of 7 to have college experience. I get so tired of being my own support group, constantly revving up my own willpower by punching myself to snap out of it. I'll admit it here, I want to end everything sometimes. The only thing really keeping me going is the small lantern in the distance flickering on and off. No idea what it leads to. No idea if it's good or bad. I'm just curious. Curiosity that pulls my feet out of the bog of despair so I can keep limping.
TL;DR
Work sucks, I'm about to put in my 2 weeks. Ralsei cosplay is coming along. Sadly I greatly underestimate the skill and time to make things happen. I'm relapsing because I'm getting tired of being the only person cheering for my success.
Although, I did get Ralsei's coat 90% done this weekend in the span of 7hr. Just need a head hole and fix the buttons so it can snap close. I want to point out that I'm super confident in wanting to do something, but greatly underestimate the skill and time needed to do said project. This goes for both Duva's armor and Ralsei. I'm slow at crafting through and through. I'll admit it. I want to keep practicing to get better, but...the results don't match what I envisioned LOL. Doesn't help when I have ideas that end up costing time to fix instead of giving me shortcuts.
Yet again I'm at that point where I'm questioning all of my decisions. Like:[ Is writing my book even worth it? Is the effort for Super Duva justified? Is even with anything worth it?] I feel the root of this is me having to be my own support squad since middle school. My family in general dropped out at middle/high school, I'm one of like 12 ever to graduate high school, and one of 7 to have college experience. I get so tired of being my own support group, constantly revving up my own willpower by punching myself to snap out of it. I'll admit it here, I want to end everything sometimes. The only thing really keeping me going is the small lantern in the distance flickering on and off. No idea what it leads to. No idea if it's good or bad. I'm just curious. Curiosity that pulls my feet out of the bog of despair so I can keep limping.
TL;DR
Work sucks, I'm about to put in my 2 weeks. Ralsei cosplay is coming along. Sadly I greatly underestimate the skill and time to make things happen. I'm relapsing because I'm getting tired of being the only person cheering for my success.
