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19 years ago
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Hooray for chain letters... looks like I've been 'tagged'. Apparently the idea is to describe six things that are either 'weird habits' or 'things you hate about yourself'. Whee!
Let's start with something I dislike about myself: like most people my entire existence is nothing more than an artificial shell of projected ego and my own desired self-image. The harsh realities of living life in a rigidly-enforced social paradigm caused me at an early age to develop a psychological 'armor' consisting of both a powerful drive to try and 'fit in' as well as a seething resentment of that very same drive in myself (a contradiction which ultimately created some colorful neuroses like self-loathing and an instinctive dislike of authority figures). I'm often subverted by the feeling that my whole life is simply an artificial reflection of who I've tried to become in order to feel like I'm surviving in this world.
I guess that pretty much covers what I don't like about myself. Let's move on to weird habits.
Habit #1: I put maple syrup on my bacon.
Habit #2: I like to slightly burn my popcorn until it's kind of smoky-tasting. It's better that way.
Habit #3: I am a wickedly sore loser. I often choose not to engage in competitive activities with people out of the fear that I'll start acting like an unlikeable prick.
Habit #4: I am sometimes cripplingly self-aware and indecisive. It can take me up to fifteen minutes just to pick out a box of cereal at the supermarket.
Habit #5: I sometimes use self-deprecation in an attempt to circumvent the pain of having somebody else point out my flaws and failings first. (This does not actually work, by the way.)
I'm supposed to send this 'tag' off to six other people now, but in all honesty I can't think of anybody to tag who hasn't been already. Ah well.
Let's start with something I dislike about myself: like most people my entire existence is nothing more than an artificial shell of projected ego and my own desired self-image. The harsh realities of living life in a rigidly-enforced social paradigm caused me at an early age to develop a psychological 'armor' consisting of both a powerful drive to try and 'fit in' as well as a seething resentment of that very same drive in myself (a contradiction which ultimately created some colorful neuroses like self-loathing and an instinctive dislike of authority figures). I'm often subverted by the feeling that my whole life is simply an artificial reflection of who I've tried to become in order to feel like I'm surviving in this world.
I guess that pretty much covers what I don't like about myself. Let's move on to weird habits.
Habit #1: I put maple syrup on my bacon.
Habit #2: I like to slightly burn my popcorn until it's kind of smoky-tasting. It's better that way.
Habit #3: I am a wickedly sore loser. I often choose not to engage in competitive activities with people out of the fear that I'll start acting like an unlikeable prick.
Habit #4: I am sometimes cripplingly self-aware and indecisive. It can take me up to fifteen minutes just to pick out a box of cereal at the supermarket.
Habit #5: I sometimes use self-deprecation in an attempt to circumvent the pain of having somebody else point out my flaws and failings first. (This does not actually work, by the way.)
I'm supposed to send this 'tag' off to six other people now, but in all honesty I can't think of anybody to tag who hasn't been already. Ah well.
I guess it ended up sounding a bit downbeat, but that's only because of the nature of the list. I could just as easily have gone on about six things I really like about myself. :3
*hug back atcha*
*snugs*
Does that mean you like toasty popcorn? :3