Well here we are, the last day of 2018 and I´m sure that many of you are already working on with all the New Year´s plans for tonight.

I wanted to make a quick journal for conclude my past year and make a little mentions for upcoming year.

So 2018 was another emotional roller coaster for me, surely there was ups and downs. But I kinda feel like this year and 2017 were the years for me that I started to working with making my life better than it has been in the past.
As much as there´s still a lot of work with getting over my insecurities and bad habits, like self-doubt for getting the shorter stick with life for getting a stable income and proper work.
That has made a lock (or knot) into my mind that I´m still working on with getting rid of the feeling of not interesting, boring guy between people with high social life.

I know that I have been so silent in groups as I tend to not willing to attract attention towards myself or I´m not that kind of guy who talks alot.
This is the thing that one of my friends  vince_bloodwing has been secretly pushing me to get rid off so many times and I highly respect him for being good friend overall.
Also my lovely boyfriend  hornetv2 and  karmakat has done their all best to give me support and help whenever I needed, so I have a high respect on them as well.

Getting the lock of insecurity and doubt open will be my priority goal and resolution for 2019, because I do highly want to feel carefree and happy without any doubting or hesitating.
I´m really sorry that it has taken this long to work on, but I´m sure that I´ll get there without no doubt.

2018 was also sad year for losing one of great fur,  tzup who I was lucky to meet at Eurofurence 20 (which was my first EF and first time in Berlin).
I did a some mention about him on my profile page as I try to keep this journal as brief as I can, but still, he left a great impact on me for sure even with brief time we got at EF.
You´ll be missed dearly by everyone, buddy.

One better thing I got to witness during this year, was that for the first time for long time I managed to get under 100 kilograms, well last year this time I was 110,1 kilograms and currently 100,9 kilograms.
(Christmas time does give some gains x3)
But still, as I´m getting closer and closer for my ultimate goal 80 kilograms, I´m sure that I´m able to get that goal achieved.
Also I´m feeling way better physically than about 2 years ago when I started working on with weight loss.
^^
So this weight loss goal will be staying for another year as my second important resolution for New years ^^




So for 2019, will be a big year for me as there´s lot of celebrations coming up (and I have mentioned these back on December 2018 journal):

10th anniversary of  hornetv2 and me being together
10th anniversary of many of my close fur friends that I have met
10th anniversary of being Furry Fandom and on FA

So I´m doing my best to make some great things to celebrate the tenth year here on FA.
But you have to wait and see as I´m still planning on those and who knows what I´m working on during upcoming year xD


Anyways, I should wrap this journal up now so it won´t go too huge x3
So thank you all for sticking with me throughout the 2018 and may everyone have a great start for 2019!

Let the celebration begin!!

Your friendly lion,
Jake